California -- Fiction; Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction
Not since the days of her engagement to Martin, and then only on a few
occasions, had she felt the thrill that she experienced now, when
Pauline, with her dark eyes and her frilly parasol, wandered in the
kitchen door, to sit laughing and talking for a few minutes, or when
she herself dressed and crossed the village, and went up past the
packing plant and the storage barns to the two small cement gate posts
and the length of rusty chain that marked the entrance to Red Creek
"Park." Then there would be tea, poetry, talk, and the flattery that
Pauline quite deliberately applied to Cherry, and the flattery that
Cherry all unconsciously lavished on her friend in return.
Pauline read Browning, Francis Thompson, and Pater, and introduced
Cherry to new worlds of thought. She talked to Cherry of New York,
which she loved, and of the men and women she had met there. She
sometimes sighed and pushed the bright hair back from Cherry's young
and innocent and discontented little face, and said, tenderly, "On the
stage, my dear--anywhere, everywhere, you would be a furore!"
And thinking, in the quiet evenings--for Martin's work kept him later
and later at the mine--Cherry came to see that her marriage had been a
great mistake. She had not been ready for marriage. She would sit on
the back steps, as the evenings grew cooler, and watch the exquisite
twilight fade, and the sorrow and beauty of life would wring her heart.
Darkness came, the Turner children shrieked, laughed, clattered dishes,
and were silent. Cherry would sit on, her arms wrapped in her apron,
her eyes staring into the young night. In the darkness she could only
see the great shadows that were the Adams' windmill, and the old Brown
barn, and the Cutters' house down the back road. The dry earth seemed
awake at night, stretching itself, under brown sods, for a great breath
of relief in the merciful coolness. Cherry could smell grapes, and
smell the pleasant wetness of the dust where the late watering cart had
passed by, after sunset. The roads were too hot for watering all day
long, and this sweet, wet odour only came with the night.
A dream of ease and adoration and beauty came to her. She did not
visualize any special place, any special gown or hour or person. But
she saw her beauty fittingly environed; she saw cool rooms, darkened
against this blazing midsummer glare; heard ice clinking against glass;
the footsteps of attentive maids; the sound of cultivated voices, of
music and laughter. She had had these dreams before, but they were
becoming habitual now. She was so tired--so sick--so bored with her
real life; it was becoming increasingly harder and harder for her to
live with Martin; to endure and to struggle against the pricks. She was
always in a suppressed state of wanting to break out, to shout at him
brazenly, "I don't care if your coffee is weak! I like it weak! I don't
care if you don't like my hat--I do! Stop talking about yourself!"
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