Gervase went home to his empty echoing house with the subdued sensations
of a struggle past. It was past, and his fate decided--a thing in which
there is always a certain solace after a conflict. No need to enter into
all the vicissitudes of argument again; no need for any more _pros_ and
_cons_. To take or to leave. To have Madeline with her father’s consent,
and without any painful breach of the enthralling customs and
traditions of life, or to drag her through all the harassing
contradictions and trials of rebellion--to fret her mind with opposition
to all the rules of established life. Gervase concluded with himself
that it was now his certain duty to give up all those, perhaps
fantastical, objections--that reluctance and rebellion which had already
cost him so much. It was no longer even possible to fight. He had
renounced that tenor of life which ought to have been second nature to a
merchant’s son--almost arrogantly, imperatively, hearing no reason when
his father had suggested it; now he could not even struggle against a
necessity which involved Madeline as well as himself. The house sounded
very empty as he came into it. There was an echo through and through it
of the clanging of the door. He went into the library, in which he had
held that last conference with his father, and sat down, sadly thinking
of all that had come and gone. Had he yielded then, how different all
might have been!--the house of Burton still intact; the old traditions
unbroken; his father a man prosperous and respected; himself independent
of all such remark as that which would now, he was painfully aware, be
made everywhere. A man with nothing marrying a girl with a large
fortune. When the wealth is on the other side there are no such remarks.
But the moment that the woman has wealth, interest and not love is
supposed to be the motive on the man’s side. How unjust, how miserable,
how horrible! But however his heart might rebel against this cruel
judgment, it would be made, he knew, and he would have to bear it.
If he had only done this thing which he must now do--from which there
was no escape--a year ago!--if he had but consented, and pleased his
father and satisfied those calls of nature and birth which, after all,
it would appear no man could escape! His own father was more to him than
Madeline’s, though Madeline was more than all the world. Had he but
insisted more strongly, been more urgent, commanded even! Gervase sat
with his head in his hands, and thought. But he knew, at the same time,
that however much his father had commanded, he would not have obeyed. He
would have had no faith in these paternal commands. He would have been
sure, as Madeline had been, that in the end his own will would carry the
day. As Madeline had been: yet Madeline had not stood out against this
compromise; even her sympathy had deserted him at the last. It was by
her ordinance, as well as her father’s, that his will was to be
subjugated--at the last.
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