This brought Gervase to his senses. He was--oh, so tender of her
weakness, of the excited nerves of which she had lost control, and the
evident long tension of her feelings, which had broken at last. He took
her into his arms and soothed her, calling her by every tender name he
could think of. “What a brute I am--to torment you with all my whims and
scruples! All you say is like gospel, Madeline. I know, I know it is all
true. I don’t know what I deserve for troubling you with these idiotic
fancies of mine. I know I ought to be too thankful that everything is
thus made possible for us. And so I shall be when I have time to think.
It is only the first shock, the conviction that my father----”
“Gervase,” she said, “don’t let any one but me hear you speak of him as
you have done. He is your father. And how can you tell whether he is to
blame? By you at least he should never be made to appear so. I feel
sure--that he is not to blame.”
“If you think so, I will think so too,” he cried fervently. And he did
his best to keep his word. He kept it at least in her presence, while
her faith influenced him. If his heart sank when he was alone, nobody
was the wiser. And, indeed, from this moment the pace of events was so
much accelerated that Gervase had much less time to think. Mr Thursley
received the news of his sudden accession of wealth with a long whistle,
in which was surprise, yet something else besides surprise. “I thought
as much,” he said, nodding his head; but what he thought he did not
explain. He went chuckling about the house for the remainder of the day,
uttering now and then a broken exclamation in which there was something
about an old fox. Gervase was wise enough to ask no explanations. He
felt in his heart that Mr Thursley thought as he did, but was not
wounded as he was by the thought: and the young man breathed a sigh of
relief, and thanked heaven that he was freed for ever from those
methods and tenets, which made it not entirely blamable in a man to hold
back something that was not his, and make meet provision for his own
necessities, while preserving the semblance of perfect honour to others.
He himself had to keep silence, or to consent to be considered
ultra-fantastical even by the woman he loved. He yielded to fate, not
willingly, with a sense of repugnance, and resistance which would have
seemed extraordinary, unjustifiable almost to all reasonable people.
Perhaps it was no great shadow among all the brightness that now
surrounded him, but still he felt it to the bottom of his heart.
CHAPTER X.
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