I had been sent to this place at so tender an age as soon to lose
all Distinct recollection of the scenes I had left behind. As my
mind expanded, therefore, it formed its idea of the world from
the convent and its vicinity, and a dreary world it appeared to
me. An early tinge of melancholy was thus infused into my
character; and the dismal stories of the monks, about devils and
evil spirits, with which they affrighted my young imagination,
gave me a tendency to superstition, which I could never
effectually shake off. They took the same delight to work upon my
ardent feelings that had been so mischievously exercised by my
father’s household.
I can recollect the horrors with which they fed my heated fancy
during an eruption of Vesuvius. We were distant from that
volcano, with mountains between us; but its convulsive throes
shook the solid foundations of nature. Earthquakes threatened to
topple down our convent towers. A lurid, baleful light hung in
the heavens at night, and showers of ashes, borne by the wind,
fell in our narrow valley. The monks talked of the earth being
honey-combed beneath us; of Streams of molten lava raging through
its veins; of caverns of sulphurous flames roaring in the centre,
the abodes of demons and the damned; of fiery gulfs ready to yawn
beneath our feet. All these tales were told to the doleful
accompaniment of the mountain’s thunders, whose low bellowing
made the walls of our convent vibrate.
One of the monks had been a painter, but had retired from the
world, and embraced this dismal life in expiation of some crime.
He was a melancholy man, who pursued his art in the solitude of
his cell, but made it a source of penance to him. His employment
was to portray, either on canvas or in waxen models, the human
face and human form, in the agonies of death and in all the
stages of dissolution and decay. The fearful mysteries of the
charnel house were unfolded in his labors—the loathsome banquet
of the beetle and the worm.—I turn with shuddering even from the
recollection of his works. Yet, at that time, my strong, but
ill-directed imagination seized with ardor upon his instructions
in his art. Any thing was a variety from the dry studies and
monotonous duties of the cloister. In a little while I became
expert with my pencil, and my gloomy productions were thought
worthy of decorating some of the altars of the chapel.
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