Kreisler was ingrainedly antiquated, purer German. He had experienced
suddenly home-sickness, that often overtakes voluntary exiles at the
turn of their life—_his_ being, not for Germany, exactly, but for the
romantic, stiff ideals of the German student of his generation. It was
a home-sickness for his early self. Like knack of riding a bicycle or
anything learnt in youth, this character was easily assumed. He was
gradually discovering the foundations of his personality. Many previous
moods and phases of his nature were mounting to the surface.
Arrived in front of the Café Berne, he stood for fifteen minutes looking
up and down the street, at the pavement, his watch, the passers-by. Then
he chose the billiard-room door to avoid the principal one, where he
usually entered.
All the ugly familiarity of this place, he hated with methodic,
deliberate hatred; taking things one by one, as it were, persons and
objects. The _garçon’s_ spasmodic running about was like a gnat’s energy
over stagnation.
Passing from the billiard-room to a gangway with several tables, his
dull, exasperated eye fell on something it did not understand. How could
it be expected to understand? It was an eye and it stuck. It was simple,
though. It was amazed and did not understand.
_Anastasya._
Set in the heart of this ennui, it arrested the mind like a brick
wall some carter drowsed on his wagon. Stopping dead, Kreisler stared
stupidly. Anastasya was sitting there with Soltyk. With Soltyk! He seemed
about to speak to them—they, at least, were under this impression. Quite
naturally he was about to do this, like a child. As though in intense
abstraction, he fixed his eyes on them. Then he took a step towards them,
possibly with the idea of sitting down beside them. Consciousness set in,
with a tropic tide of rage, and carried him at a brisk pace towards the
door, corresponding to the billiard-room door, on the other side of the
café. Yet in the midst of this he instinctively raised his hat a little,
his eyes fixed now on his feet.
He was in a great hurry to get past the two people sitting there. This
could not be done without discovering two inches of the scalp for a
moment—as an impatient man in a crush, wishing to pass, pushes another
aside, raising his hat at the same time to have the right to be rude.
Same table on _terrasse_ as an hour before. But Kreisler seemed sitting
on air, or one of those wooden whirling platforms in the fêtes.
The _garçon_, with a femininely pink, virile face which, in a spirit of
fun, he kept constantly wooden and solemn except when, having taken your
order, he winked or smiled—came up hastily.
“Was wünschen Sie?” he asked, wiping the table with a serviette. He had
learned a few words of German from the customers. Supposing Kreisler
rather a touchy man, he always attempted to put him at his ease, as the
running of bills was valuable to him. He had confidence in this client,
and wished the bill to assume vague and profitable proportions.
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