She went to the window and opened it. At that moment Bernard was
really happy; this woman who had always intimidated and humiliated
him, this evening he had her at his feet. How abject she must feel!
His moderation made him feel quite pleased with himself. Madame de la
Trave constantly told him he was a saint: the whole Family praised his
noble character: and indeed he began for the first time to realise
his own nobility of mind. When, with many precautions, Thérèse’s
attempt on his life had been disclosed to him in the nursing-home, his
self-possession, which had been so highly commended, had cost him but
little effort. Nothing seems really serious to those who are incapable
of love; because he was without love, Bernard had only felt the sort
of tremulous joy that follows an escape from great danger: the sort
of sensation a man might have who had been told that he has lived for
years, without knowing it, in the company of a homicidal maniac. But
that evening Bernard was conscious of his strength: he dominated life.
He marvelled how every difficulty gives way before a clear and upright
mind: even so soon after all this turmoil he was ready to maintain
that “no one is ever unhappy except by his own fault.” See how he
had dealt with the most appalling tragedy as if it had been the most
ordinary matter of business. It would hardly be known: he would save
his face: no one would sympathize with him any more, and he hated
sympathy. There is nothing humiliating about having married a criminal
when one has the last word. Besides, a bachelor life is no bad thing,
and the proximity of death had marvellously increased in him his taste
for landed property, shooting, motor-cars, and things to eat and
drink;--for life, in short.
Thérèse remained standing before the window: she could catch a glimpse
of white gravel, and smell the chrysanthemums, which were protected
from the cattle by wire-netting. Beyond them a dark mass of oaks
hid the pines: but the night was full of their resinous odour: like
a hostile army, invisible but near at hand, Thérèse knew that they
surrounded the house. These warders, whose muttered lamentations she
could hear, would watch her wasting away through the winters, and
gasping through the summer heats: they would be the witnesses of her
slow strangulation. She shut the window once more and went up to
Bernard.
“Do you think you will keep me here by force?”
“As you like ... but let me tell you this: you won’t leave this house
except in handcuffs.”
“What nonsense! I know you: don’t make yourself out worse than you
are. You will not expose the Family to such shame. You need not try to
frighten me.” Whereupon, with the air of a man who has well weighed
everything, he explained to her that to leave the house was to confess
her guilt. In that case, the Family could only avert disgrace by
amputating the diseased member, rejecting and disowning it in the face
of the world.
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