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And he resolved to work with his hands, in order to give his mind that
rest of which it had need. Near the spring, some banana trees, with
large leaves, grew under the shade of the palms. He cut the stalks, and
carried them to the tomb. He crushed them with a stone, and reduced them
to fibres, as he had seen ropemakers do. For he intended to make a cord,
to replace that which the devil had stolen. The demons were somewhat
displeased at this; they ceased their clamour, and the girl with the
theorbo no longer continued her magic arts, but remained quietly on the
wall. The courage and faith of Paphnutius increased whilst he pounded
the banana stems.
“With Heaven’s help,” he said to himself, “I shall subdue the flesh. As
to my soul, its confidence is still unshaken. In vain do the devils, and
that accursed woman, try to instil into my mind doubts as to the nature
of God. I will reply to them, by the mouth of the Apostle John, ‘In the
beginning was the Word, and the Word was God.’ That I firmly believe,
and that which I believe is absurd, I believe still more firmly. In fact
it should be absurd. If it were not so, I should not believe; I should
know. And it is not that which we know which gives eternal life; it is
faith only that saves.”
He exposed the separated fibres to the sun and the dew, and every
morning he took care to turn them, to prevent them rotting; and he
rejoiced to find that he had become as simple as a child. When he had
twisted his cord, he cut reeds to make mats and baskets. The sepulchral
chamber resembled a basket-maker’s workshop, and Paphnutius could pass
without difficulty from work to prayer. Yet still God was not merciful
to him, for one night he was awakened by a voice which froze him with
horror, for he guessed that it was the voice of the dead man.
The voice called quickly, in a light whisper--
“Helen! Helen! come and bathe with me! come quickly!”
A woman, whose mouth was close to the monk’s ear, replied--
“Friend, I cannot rise; a man is lying on me.”
Paphnutius suddenly perceived that his cheek rested on a woman’s breast.
He recognised the player of the theorbo, who, partly relieved of his
weight, raised her breast. He clung tightly to the sweet, warm, perfumed
body, and consumed with the desire of damnation, he cried--
“Stay, stay, my heavenly one!”
But she was already standing on the threshold. She laughed, and her
smile gleamed in the silver rays of the moon.
“Why should I stay?” she said. “The shadow of a shadow is enough for a
lover endowed with such a lively imagination. Besides, you have sinned.
What more was needed?”
Paphnutius wept in the night, and when the dawn came, he murmured a
prayer that was a meek complaint--
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