"Gilbertine," I began, "I will make no pretense of misunderstanding you.
The situation is too serious, the honor which you do me too great; only,
I am not free to accept that honor. The words which I uttered were meant
for your cousin Dorothy. I expected to find her in this room. I have
long loved your cousin--in secrecy, I own, but honestly and with every
hope of some day making her my wife. I--I--"
There was no need for me to finish. The warm hand turning to ice in my
clasp, the wide-open, blind-struck eyes, the recoil, the maiden flush
rising, deepening, covering chin and cheek and forehead, then fading out
again till the whole face was white as marble and seemingly as
cold--told me that the blow had gone home and that Gilbertine Murray,
the unequalled beauty, the petted darling of a society who recognized
every charm she possessed save her ardent nature and great heart, had
reached the height of her many miseries and that it was I who had placed
her there.
Overcome with pity, but conscious, also, of a profound respect, I
endeavored to utter some futile words, which she at once put an end to
by an appealing gesture.
"You can say nothing," she began. "I have made an awful mistake, the
worst a woman can make, I think." Then, with long pauses, as though her
tongue were clogged by shame--perhaps by some deeper if less apparent
feeling--"You love Dorothy; does Dorothy love you?"
My answer was an honest one.
"I have dared to hope so, despite the little opportunity she has given
me to express my feelings. She has always held me back, and that very
decidedly, or my devotion would have been apparent to everybody."
"Oh, Dorothy!"
Regret, sorrow, infinite tenderness, all were audible in that cry.
Indeed, it seemed as if for the moment her thoughts were more taken up
with her cousin's unhappiness than with her own.
"How I must have made her suffer! I have been a curse to those who loved
me. But I am humbled now, and very rightly."
I began to experience a certain awe of this great nature. There was
grandeur even in her contrition and, as I took in the expression of her
colorless features, sweet with almost an unearthly sweetness in spite of
the anguish consuming her, I suddenly realized what Sinclair's love for
her must be. I also as suddenly realized the depth and extent of his
suffering. To call such a woman his, to lead her almost to the foot of
the altar and then to see her turn aside and leave him! Surely his lot
was an intolerable one, and, though the interference I had unconsciously
made in his wishes had been involuntary, I felt like cursing myself for
not having been more open in my attentions to the girl I really loved.
Gilbertine seemed to divine my thoughts, for, pausing at the door she
had unconsciously approached, she stood with the knob in her hand, and,
with averted brow, remarked gravely:
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