The Arrow of Gold: A Story Between Two NotesConrad, Joseph
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The Arrow of Gold: A Story Between Two Notes
Conrad, Joseph
Adventure stories; Illegal arms transfers -- Fiction; Marseille (France) -- Fiction; Sea stories; Young men -- Fiction
“Not for Legitimacy,” I interrupted the inquiry lightly. “But what’s the
use asking such questions? It’s like asking the veiled figure of fate.
It doesn’t know its own mind nor its own heart. It has no heart. But
what if I were to start asking you—who have a heart and are not veiled to
my sight?” She dropped her charming adolescent head, so firm in
modelling, so gentle in expression. Her uncovered neck was round like
the shaft of a column. She wore the same wrapper of thick blue silk. At
that time she seemed to live either in her riding habit or in that
wrapper folded tightly round her and open low to a point in front.
Because of the absence of all trimming round the neck and from the deep
view of her bare arms in the wide sleeve this garment seemed to be put
directly on her skin and gave one the impression of one’s nearness to her
body which would have been troubling but for the perfect unconsciousness
of her manner. That day she carried no barbarous arrow in her hair. It
was parted on one side, brushed back severely, and tied with a black
ribbon, without any bronze mist about her forehead or temple. This
smoothness added to the many varieties of her expression also that of
child-like innocence.
Great progress in our intimacy brought about unconsciously by our
enthusiastic interest in the matter of our discourse and, in the moments
of silence, by the sympathetic current of our thoughts. And this rapidly
growing familiarity (truly, she had a terrible gift for it) had all the
varieties of earnestness: serious, excited, ardent, and even gay. She
laughed in contralto; but her laugh was never very long; and when it had
ceased, the silence of the room with the light dying in all its many
windows seemed to lie about me warmed by its vibration.
As I was preparing to take my leave after a longish pause into which we
had fallen as into a vague dream, she came out of it with a start and a
quiet sigh. She said, “I had forgotten myself.” I took her hand and was
raising it naturally, without premeditation, when I felt suddenly the arm
to which it belonged become insensible, passive, like a stuffed limb, and
the whole woman go inanimate all over! Brusquely I dropped the hand
before it reached my lips; and it was so lifeless that it fell heavily on
to the divan.
I remained standing before her. She raised to me not her eyes but her
whole face, inquisitively—perhaps in appeal.
“No! This isn’t good enough for me,” I said.
The last of the light gleamed in her long enigmatic eyes as if they were
precious enamel in that shadowy head which in its immobility suggested a
creation of a distant past: immortal art, not transient life. Her voice
had a profound quietness. She excused herself.
“It’s only habit—or instinct—or what you like. I have had to practise
that in self-defence lest I should be tempted sometimes to cut the arm
off.”
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