The Arrow of Gold: A Story Between Two NotesConrad, Joseph
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The Arrow of Gold: A Story Between Two Notes
Conrad, Joseph
Adventure stories; Illegal arms transfers -- Fiction; Marseille (France) -- Fiction; Sea stories; Young men -- Fiction
“I have days like that. Often one must listen to false protestations,
empty words, strings of lies all day long, so that in the evening one is
not fit for anything, not even for truth if it comes in one’s way. That
idiot treated me to a piece of brazen sincerity which I couldn’t stand.
First of all he began to take me into his confidence; he boasted of his
great affairs, then started groaning about his overstrained life which
left him no time for the amenities of existence, for beauty, or
sentiment, or any sort of ease of heart. His heart! He wanted me to
sympathize with his sorrows. Of course I ought to have listened. One
must pay for service. Only I was nervous and tired. He bored me. I
told him at last that I was surprised that a man of such immense wealth
should still keep on going like this reaching for more and more. I
suppose he must have been sipping a good deal of wine while we talked and
all at once he let out an atrocity which was too much for me. He had
been moaning and sentimentalizing but then suddenly he showed me his
fangs. ‘No,’ he cries, ‘you can’t imagine what a satisfaction it is to
feel all that penniless, beggarly lot of the dear, honest, meritorious
poor wriggling and slobbering under one’s boots.’ You may tell me that
he is a contemptible animal anyhow, but you should have heard the tone!
I felt my bare arms go cold like ice. A moment before I had been hot and
faint with sheer boredom. I jumped up from the table, rang for Rose, and
told her to bring me my fur cloak. He remained in his chair leering at
me curiously. When I had the fur on my shoulders and the girl had gone
out of the room I gave him the surprise of his life. ‘Take yourself off
instantly,’ I said. ‘Go trample on the poor if you like but never dare
speak to me again.’ At this he leaned his head on his arm and sat so
long at the table shading his eyes with his hand that I had to ask,
calmly—you know—whether he wanted me to have him turned out into the
corridor. He fetched an enormous sigh. ‘I have only tried to be honest
with you, Rita.’ But by the time he got to the door he had regained some
of his impudence. ‘You know how to trample on a poor fellow, too,’ he
said. ‘But I don’t mind being made to wriggle under your pretty shoes,
Rita. I forgive you. I thought you were free from all vulgar
sentimentalism and that you had a more independent mind. I was mistaken
in you, that’s all.’ With that he pretends to dash a tear from his
eye-crocodile!—-and goes out, leaving me in my fur by the blazing fire, my
teeth going like castanets. . . Did you ever hear of anything so stupid
as this affair?” she concluded in a tone of extreme candour and a
profound unreadable stare that went far beyond us both. And the
stillness of her lips was so perfect directly she ceased speaking that I
wondered whether all this had come through them or only had formed itself
in my mind.
Presently she continued as if speaking for herself only.
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