She had never felt that she had any real share in his life; he had
always belonged to his father; nor was she a woman who cared about
children. Martin had long ago become to her simply an opportunity for
further decoration. Since his return it had been quite another affair.
In one moment she had seen her power over her husband shrivel and
disappear. Martin was home again. Martin must be here, Martin must be
there; Martin must see this, Martin must do this. She had seen before
in earlier days the force of her husband's passion when it was roused.
There was something now in his reception of their son that terrified
her. She had at once perceived that Amy was as deeply moved as she. The
girl, plain, awkward, silent, morose, had always adored her father, but
she had never known how to approach him. She was not clever, she had
not been able to enter into his life although she would have done
anything that he desired of her. What she had suffered during those
early years when, as a little ugly girl, she had watched her brother,
accepted, received into the Brotherhood, praised for his wisdom, his
intimacy with God, his marvellous saintly promise, praised for these
things when she had known all his weaknesses, how he had slipped away
to a music-hall when he was only fourteen and smoked and drank there,
how he had laughed at Mr. Thurston's dropping of his "h's" or at Miss
Avies' prayer meetings! No one ever knew what in those years she had
thought of her brother. Then, after Martin had flung it all away and
escaped abroad, she had begun, slowly, painfully, but with dogged
persistence, to make herself indispensable to her father; Martin she
had put out of her mind. He would never return, or, at least, the
interval of his departure should have been severe enough to separate
him for ever from his father ...
In a moment's glance, in a clasp of the hand, in a flash of the eye,
she had seen that love leap up in her father's heart as strong as ever
it had been. Every day of Martin's residence in the house had added
fire to that love. She was a good woman; she struggled hard to beat
down her jealousy. She prayed. She lay for hours at night struggling
with her sins. If Martin had been worthy, if he had shown love in
return, but, from the bottom of her soul, as the days increased she
despised him--despised him for his light heart, his care of worldly
things, his utter lack of comprehension of their father, his scorn,
even now but badly concealed, of all the sanctities that she had in
reverence.
Therefore she drew near to her mother and the two of them watched and
waited ...
His mother was knitting. She lifted to him her pink wrinkled face and,
her spectacles balanced on the end of her nose, smiled the smile of the
dearest old lady in the world.
"Well, dear, and have you had a pleasant day?"
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