Brittany (France) -- Fiction; France -- History -- Medieval period, 987-1515 -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Women -- Fiction
The torturing week came slowly to an end. On the final night, after
compline, she went to her cell feeling like a spirit condemned to
eternal night. Once alone, face to face with her soul, she sat down upon
a chair, bent her head upon her breast, and thought. She did not
extinguish her light, neither did she make preparations for bed.
Unconsciously she set herself to wait through the hour following
compline, as if its finish would bring the end of her trial. The minutes
were passing smoothly by, and there was a great, unuttered cry of terror
in her heart. What should she do? Nay, at the last minute, what _would_
she do? Here her mind broke. She could think no more. Her brain was a
vacuum. Presently her muscles began to twitch. Her flesh became cold and
damp, and the hot saliva poured into her mouth. Would that hour never
end?
It ended. By now Flammecœur was in the garden, three hundred feet away.
Flammecœur was waiting for her. Horses were there, and garments for
her,—other garments than these of sickening white wool. How long would
the trouvère wait? Till matins, he had said. But if that were not true?
If he should go before—if he were going _now_!
Laure started to her feet, halted, hesitated, then sank slowly to her
knees. The first words of a prayer came from her lips; but in the middle
of the phrase she was silent. Prayer was suddenly nothing to her. She
had prayed so much; she had prayed so long! The beauty of appeals to the
Most High was lost just now. She felt all the weight of her
never-satisfied religion upon her, and she revolted at it. For the
moment love itself seemed desirable only in so much as it would get her
away from this place of her hypocrisy. A sudden thought of her mother
came to her. For one moment—two—five—she kept her mind fixed. Then she
sobbed. Flammecœur was below, calling to her with every fibre of his
being. She knew that. She could see him waiting there, her cloak over
his arm. With a low wail she stretched out her arms to the mental image.
Afterwards, scarcely knowing what she did, she knelt down before the
bright-painted picture of the Madonna on the wall of her cell, and
kissed the stones of the floor below it.
Then she stood up, pressing her hands tightly to her throat to ease the
pain there. She looked around her, and in that look saw everything in
the little stone room that had for so long been her home. Then, removing
from her head the coif, wimple, and veil, the symbols of her virginity,
she extinguished her lantern, and walked, blindly and wearily, out of
her cell. So she passed, without making any noise, through the convent,
into the library, and out—out—out into the garden beyond.
Instantly Flammecœur was at her side. “Laure!” cried he, half laughing
in his triumph. “Laure! Now we shall go!”
Over his arm he carried a voluminous black mantle and a close, dark
hood. These he put upon her, getting small assistance in the matter, for
Laure’s movements were wooden, her hands like ice.
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