The Continental Monthly, Vol. 1, No. 2, February, 1862: Devoted To Literature And National PolicyVarious
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The Continental Monthly, Vol. 1, No. 2, February, 1862: Devoted To Literature And National Policy
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Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; United States -- Politics and government -- 19th century -- Periodicals
I but threw my arms around her, and sank down with her on my breast.
Nature exhausted itself in the intensity of that embrace. Language was
denied to emotion. For some moments she lay like a child, nestling to my
heart, then suddenly started up and disappeared in the hall. Again I
thought it was a dream, and that it had fled. She reappeared, bearing a
small casket, which in a quick, frantic sort of way she thrust on the
table, opened and pulled out gold pieces, jewels and bank notes,
flinging them down, some on the table and some on the floor, exclaiming,
'See, you ruined yourself for me, and I have come to repay you. Look,
all these your Evelyn brings to testify to her love. The children!' she
exclaimed, as she threw out the last contents,--'where are they? Come,
show me.' She seized the lamp, and, grasping my arm, dragged me in my
half-bewildered state to the next apartment, where the infants lay
sleeping. She flung herself eagerly but tenderly upon them, and devoured
them with kisses. 'Now you will love them, for my sake,' she said; and,
for the first time since discovering that she loved me not, I bestowed
upon them a voluntary paternal caress--I bowed over them and gently
kissed their foreheads. Her love for them had restored them to my heart.
Then again, with her wild, impetuous manner, she led me back to the
other room. I sat upon the sofa and drew her to my breast. She lay
passive a moment, then started up and paced the floor, with rapid
utterances, broken with half sobs and half laughter. She returned to me,
and again repeated this, till finally interrupted with a violent fit of
coughing, occasioned, as I supposed, by excitement.
'Be calm, Evelyn,' I said. 'Come and lie in my arms. This joy is too
great for me to realize. I must feel you on my bosom to convince me that
I am not deceived.'
So she reposed in my arms, and--with broken sobs, the intervals of which
gradually increased, she finally slept. A lethargy also fell upon me,
which endured how long I know not. As I returned to wakefulness, I
shuddered with a cold thrill, such as one might feel on suddenly finding
himself in the presence of a spirit; for I heard what was of more
terrible meaning to me than any other sound. The rest of the precious
sleeper at my side was disturbed frequently by a short, husky cough,
followed by a low moan as of dull pain. Well I knew the prediction
conveyed by those sounds. Long watchings by the bedside of a
slowly-dying mother had made me fearfully familiar with them. Through
the lingering hours of that night I sat listening to them with an
agonized ear, and in my bitterness I almost cursed Heaven for providing
the doom I anticipated.
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