The Continental Monthly, Vol. 1, No. 2, February, 1862: Devoted To Literature And National PolicyVarious
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The Continental Monthly, Vol. 1, No. 2, February, 1862: Devoted To Literature And National Policy
Various
Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; United States -- Politics and government -- 19th century -- Periodicals
The passage was long and tedious. Before reaching our destination my
hopes of Evelyn's recovery had vanished. Her demeanor was so gentle,
childlike and affectionate, my heart was wrung with anguish. I could not
break her sweet serenity by disclosing the fate which was impending. She
seemed to have reached a period of the most holy and perfect
satisfaction. All the suppressed bitterness of former years--all the
earnest resolution of the later time--had vanished, and she rested happy
in the enjoyment of our mutual love. This quiet assisted the process of
destruction. Had there been something to rouse her old energy, I am
confident she would have made a desperate, perhaps successful, struggle
for life. But I could not force myself to excite it by a warning against
the insidious destroyer.
On our arrival she was in a deplorable condition of weakness. She
imputed this debility to the voyage. Day by day I saw the flame of life
dwindling, but she was unsuspicious, and only wondered that her recovery
was so slow. Once, as she was watching, in a half-declining position,
the setting sun, and talking of the happy days to come, I could contain
myself no longer, but burst forth into a frenzy of sobbing.
'Evelyn,' I said, 'you are dying. You know it not, but, oh God, it is
true. You are dying before me, and I can not save you. Perhaps it is too
late for you to save yourself.'
At first she supposed that my emotion was only the undue result of
anxiety for her, but as I grew calmer, and told her more precisely my
meaning, and the causes of my fears, she said, with something of her old
firmness,--
'If this be true, let me become fully convinced. Call in Dr. ----, and
leave me alone with him. I have not thought of dying, but should have
known that my present happiness was too exquisite to last.'
I sent in the doctor, and he told her all. What passed between us, on my
return, is too sacred for relation. It is enough that the bitterness of
that hour filled all the capacity of the human heart for anguish and
despair. Afterwards we became more reconciled to the dispositions of
Heaven.
The history of her gradual decline need not be related--the hopes, the
suspense, the disappointments--the reviving indications of health, the
increasing symptoms of fatal disease--the flush and brilliancy as of
exuberant vitality--the fading of all the hues of life--all the
vicissitudes of the unrelenting progress of decay--one after another,
resolving themselves into the lineaments of death.
It was indeed too late.
Frank still remained in Florence, but had discarded the society of his
bachelor friends for that of the young lady previously mentioned, who
was now entitled to call him husband.
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