The Continental Monthly, Vol. III, No. V, May, 1863: Devoted to Literature and National PolicyVarious
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The Continental Monthly, Vol. III, No. V, May, 1863: Devoted to Literature and National Policy
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Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals; United States -- Politics and government -- 19th century -- Periodicals
hatred of a few clear-sighted opponents, but most persons only ridiculed
her, contemptuously wondering why she should pursue this course when her
interest lay so clearly the other way. But she was now far beyond the
reach of such weapons.
'I have given you, thus, a sketch of the history and character of
Laetitia, but I cannot reproduce her as she appears to my own mind. You
must fill up the outlines from your own personal knowledge. I fear I
have rendered her too intense, and, perhaps, too sombre. Intense she
certainly was, but it did not oppress one in ordinary intercourse; and
she was not at all sombre. After she recovered fully from her youthful
grief, her elasticity of temperament returned, and her love of fun. She
looked on the bright side of all things, and was full of encouragement
and hope for her friends. To me, besides being, during the last five
years particularly, a valuable friend and adviser--no one but myself can
know how valuable--she was always an interesting companion. And yet she
was not generally liked. She was seldom understood. Her life was so
deep, her tone of thought so peculiar; and her dependence upon the
opinions of others so slight, that persons ordinarily could not 'make
her out,' as they said. Still she had very warm friends, and derived
great pleasure from their friendship. I have never seen any one derive
more. But she distrusted strangers; I mean their interest in her. She
did not expect new persons to care for her, and it took her a long while
to be sure that they did. I must myself confess, for the first and last
time, that until within two or three years I never met her after an
absence without being newly impressed with her exceeding homeliness. It
was a sin against friendship, I knew, and I was glad when I felt I was
free from it.'
'It was not so with me,' I said. 'After I became accustomed to her face
it never affected me unpleasantly. I did not see the features, but the
spirit which animated them.'
'Yes, you were with her continually, and, besides, she must have been so
completely identified in your mind with the relief of pain, that you
could think of her only as an angel of mercy. It was a great advantage
to her that she was always scrupulously neat in her dress and person;
and her clothes, too, were well put on, if without a great deal of
taste.
'Upon the whole, her life was a happy one, though not perhaps triumphant
except in periods of exaltation, for there was a large part of her
nature unsatisfied; but she was thoroughly contented, willingly living
as long as was necessary, glad to go whenever the time came. She never
expected to die young, but she did; she was only thirty-six.'
'She seemed older,' I said.
'Yes, she always looked older than she was, and then she had lived so
much that she necessarily impressed one as being old.
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