"No, no, the girls, poor darlings," Lady Constance replied. "One does
get dreadfully anxious about them, Shotover, really one does--specially
if one has escaped something very frightening oneself and has been very
happy--lest they should fall in love with the wrong people, or lest
they should be anything which one did not know beforehand and then
everything should turn out dreadful. I should be so miserable. I don't
think I could bear it. I know it is wrong to say that, because if one
was really good, one would accept whatever God sent without murmuring.
So I could for myself, I think. In any case I should earnestly try to.
But for the children it is so much harder. If they were unhappy I
should feel ashamed of having had them--as if I'd done something
horribly selfish; because, you see, there can be nothing so delightful
as having children."
She looked at Lord Fallowfeild in the most pathetic manner, the corners
of her mouth a-shake. And he took her hand and held it again, touched
by the sincerity of her confused utterance, and the great mother-love
resident in her. Touched, perhaps, by the age-old problem of man and
maid, also.
"Dear little Con, dear little Con," he said, "I'm awfully sorry you
should be worried, but I'm afraid we've got to look facts in the face.
And it's no kindness for me to lie to you about these matters. I don't
pretend to say what's right or what's wrong; I only say what it is. We
can't make society, and the ways of it, all over again even to save
Kathleen a heartache. I don't want to seem a brute, but she must just
take her chance along with the rest of you. Marriage always has been a
confounded uncertain business, and will always remain so, I suppose.
The sort of remedies excited persons suggest to mitigate the dangers of
it are a good deal worse than the disease, in my opinion. Every woman
has to take her chance. Every man has to take his, too, you know--and
the chance strikes some of us as such an uncommonly poor one, that,
upon my honour, it seems safest to wash one's hands of it altogether."
"But you're not unhappy, Shotover, dear? You're not lonely?" Lady
Constance inquired anxiously.
"Abominably so sometimes, Con. But I manage, oh! I manage. I have my
consolations"--he smiled at her, perhaps a trifle shamefacedly. "But
now about Kathleen," he went on, "as I say, she must take her chance
along with the rest of you, poor little dear. After all, you took your
chance when you married Decies, and it has not turned out so badly, you
know."
Lady Constance became radiant once more, as some mild-shining summer
moon emerging from behind temporarily obscuring clouds.
"Oh! but then," she said, "of course that was so entirely different."
Lord Fallowfeild patted her hand, his head bent, looking at her
somewhat merrily.
"Was it, my dear, was it?--I wonder," he said.
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