New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
_Isabel_. Only this morning you were my supreme court of justice; there
was no appeal from your verdict. Not an hour ago you decided a case
for me--against myself! And now--. And the worst of it is that it’s not
because you’ve changed. How do I know if you’ve changed? You haven’t
said a hundred words to me. You haven’t been an hour in the room. And
the years must have enriched you--I daresay you’ve doubled your capital.
You’ve been in the thick of life, and the metal you’re made of brightens
with use. Success on some men looks like a borrowed coat; it sits on you
as though it had been made to order. I see all this; I know it; but
I don’t _feel_ it. I don’t feel anything... anywhere... I’m numb. (_A
pause_.) Don’t laugh, but I really don’t think I should know now if you
came into the room--unless I actually saw you. (_They are both silent_.)
_Oberville (at length)_. Then, to put the most merciful interpretation
upon your epigrams, your feeling for me was made out of poorer stuff
than mine for you.
_Isabel_. Perhaps it has had harder wear.
_Oberville_. Or been less cared for?
_Isabel_. If one has only one cloak one must wear it in all weathers.
_Oberville_. Unless it is so beautiful and precious that one prefers to
go cold and keep it under lock and key.
_Isabel_. In the cedar-chest of indifference--the key of which is
usually lost.
_Oberville_. Ah, Isabel, you’re too pat! How much I preferred your
hesitations.
_Isabel_. My hesitations? That reminds me how much your coming has
simplified things. I feel as if I’d had an auction sale of fallacies.
_Oberville_. You speak in enigmas, and I have a notion that your riddles
are the reverse of the sphinx’s--more dangerous to guess than to give
up. And yet I used to find your thoughts such good reading.
_Isabel_. One cares so little for the style in which one’s praises are
written.
_Oberville_. You’ve been praising me for the last ten minutes and I find
your style detestable. I would rather have you find fault with me like a
friend than approve me like a _dilettante_.
_Isabel_. A _dilettante_! The very word I wanted!
_Oberville_. I am proud to have enriched so full a vocabulary. But I am
still waiting for the word _I_ want. (_He grows serious_.) Isabel, look
in your heart--give me the first word you find there. You’ve no idea how
much a beggar can buy with a penny!
_Isabel_. It’s empty, my poor friend, it’s empty.
_Oberville_. Beggars never say that to each other.
_Isabel_. No; never, unless it’s true.
_Oberville (after another silence)_. Why do you look at me so curiously?
_Isabel_. I’m--what was it you said? Approving you as a _dilettante_.
Don’t be alarmed; you can bear examination; I don’t see a crack
anywhere. After all, it’s a satisfaction to find that one’s idol makes a
handsome _bibelot_.
_Oberville (with an attempt at lightness)_. I was right then--you’re a
collector?
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