Betrothal -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
“Mr. Mark?” Katherine’s voice was sharp, then suddenly dropped and,
after an instant’s silence, was soft, “You’ve got Mr. Mark on the brain,
Aunt Aggie.”
“Well, my dear, I didn’t like him. I’m sure he was very bad for Henry.
But then I’m old-fashioned, I suppose. Mr. Mark shocked me, I confess.
Russia must be a very wild country.”
Then, for a space, they looked at one another. Katherine said nothing,
only, her cheeks flushed, her breath coming sharply, stared into the
mirror on the dressing-table. Aunt Aggie faced in this silence something
alarming and uneasy; it was as though they were, both of them, listening
for some sound, but the house was very still.
“I think I’ll go to bed, my dear. Kiss me, Katherine. Don’t forget that
I’m older than you, dear. I know something of the world—yes ...
good-night, my dear.”
They embraced; Katherine left the room. Her cheeks were flaming; her
body seemed wrapt in dry, scorching heat. She hurried, her heart beating
so loudly that it seemed to her to fill the passage with sound, into her
own room.
She did not switch on the electric-light, but stood there in the
darkness, the room very cool and half-shadowed; some reflected outside
light made a pool of grey twilight upon the floor, and just above this
pool Katherine stood, quite motionless, her head raised, her hands
tightly clasped together. She knew. That moment in her aunt’s room had
told her!
She was lifted, by one instant of glorious revelation, out of herself,
her body, her life, and caught up into her divine heaven, could look
down upon that other arid, mordant world with eyes of incredulous
happiness.
She loved Philip Mark. She had always loved him. She had never loved
anyone before. She had thought that life was enough with its duties, its
friendships, its little pleasures and little sorrows. She had never
lived; she was born now here in the still security of her room.... The
clocks were striking ten, the light on the carpet quivered, dimly she
could see her books, her bed, her furniture. Some voice, very far away,
called her name, waited and then called again—called the old Katherine,
who was dead now ... dead and gone ... buried in Aunt Aggie’s room. The
new Katherine had powers, demands, values, insistences, of which the old
Katherine had never dreamed.
Katherine, at this instant, asked herself no questions—whether he loved
her, what the family would say, how she herself would face a new world,
why it was that, through all these weeks, she had not known that she
loved him? She asked herself nothing.... Only waited, motionless,
staring in front of her.
Then suddenly her heart was so weighed down with happiness that she was
utterly weary; her knees trembled, her hands wavered as though seeking
some support. She turned, fell down on her knees beside the bed, her
face sank deep in her hands and so remained, thinking of nothing,
conscious of nothing, her spirit bathed in an intensity of overwhelming
joy.
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