It was about the time that his disappointment became known to
everybody, and the shot told. He gave her a piteous look and slunk off,
“just like the dog when he’s had a whipping,” to use Edith’s own
expression. Two or three lessons of this description produced their due
effect; and when he saw a male Dixon or Gervase approaching him he bit
his lip and summoned up his courage. But when he descried a
“ministering angel” he made haste and hid behind a hedge or took to the
woods. In course of time the desire to escape became an instinct, to be
followed as a matter of course; in the same way he avoided the adders
on the mountain. His old ideals were almost if not quite forgotten; he
knew that the female of the _bête humaine_, like the adder, would in
all probability sting, and he therefore shrank from its trail, but
without any feeling of special resentment. The one had a poisoned
tongue as the other had a poisoned fang, and it was well to leave them
both alone. Then had come that sudden fury of rage against all
humanity, as he went out of Caermaen carrying the book that had been
stolen from him by the enterprising Beit. He shuddered as he thought of
how nearly he had approached the verge of madness, when his eyes filled
with blood and the earth seemed to burn with fire. He remembered how he
had looked up to the horizon and the sky was blotched with scarlet; and
the earth was deep red, with red woods and red fields. There was
something of horror in the memory, and in the vision of that wild night
walk through dim country, when every shadow seemed a symbol of some
terrible impending doom. The murmur of the brook, the wind shrilling
through the wood, the pale light flowing from the mouldered trunks, and
the picture of his own figure fleeing and fleeting through the shades;
all these seemed unhappy things that told a story in fatal
hieroglyphics. And then the life and laws of the sunlight had passed
away, and the resurrection and kingdom of the dead began. Though his
limbs were weary, he had felt his muscles grow strong as steel; a
woman, one of the hated race, was beside him in the darkness, and the
wild beast woke within him, ravening for blood and brutal lust; all the
raging desires of the dim race from which he came assailed his heart.
The ghosts issued out from the weird wood and from the caves in the
hills, besieging him, as he had imagined the spiritual legion besieging
Caermaen, beckoning him to a hideous battle and a victory that he had
never imagined in his wildest dreams. And then out of the darkness the
kind voice spoke again, and the kind hand was stretched out to draw him
up from the pit. It was sweet to think of that which he had found at
last; the boy’s picture incarnate, all the passion and compassion of
his longing, all the pity and love and consolation. She, that beautiful
passionate woman offering up her beauty in sacrifice to him, she was
worthy indeed of his worship. He remembered how his tears had fallen
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