upon her breast, and how tenderly she had soothed him, whispering those
wonderful unknown words that sang to his heart. And she had made
herself defenseless before him, caressing and fondling the body that
had been so despised. He exulted in the happy thought that he had knelt
down on the ground before her, and had embraced her knees and
worshipped. The woman’s body had become his religion; he lay awake at
night looking into the darkness with hungry eyes; wishing for a
miracle, that the appearance of the so-desired form might be shaped
before him. And when he was alone in quiet places in the wood, he fell
down again on his knees, and even on his face, stretching out vain
hands in the air, as if they would feel her flesh. His father noticed
in those days that the inner pocket of his coat was stuffed with
papers; he would see Lucian walking up and down in a secret shady place
at the bottom of the orchard, reading from his sheaf of manuscript,
replacing the leaves, and again drawing them out. He would walk a few
quick steps, and pause as if enraptured, gazing in the air as if he
looked through the shadows of the world into some sphere of glory,
feigned by his thought. Mr. Taylor was almost alarmed at the sight; he
concluded of course that Lucian was writing a book. In the first place,
there seemed something immodest in seeing the operation performed under
one’s eyes; it was as if the “make-up” of a beautiful actress were done
on the stage, in full audience; as if one saw the rounded calves fixed
in position, the fleshings drawn on, the voluptuous outlines of the
figure produced by means purely mechanical, blushes mantling from the
paint-pot, and the golden tresses well secured by the wigmaker. Books,
Mr. Taylor thought, should swim into one’s ken mysteriously; they
should appear all printed and bound, without apparent genesis; just as
children are suddenly told that they have a little sister, found by
mamma in the garden. But Lucian was not only engaged in composition; he
was plainly rapturous, enthusiastic; Mr. Taylor saw him throw up his
hands, and bow his head with strange gesture. The parson began to fear
that his son was like some of those mad Frenchmen of whom he had read,
young fellows who had a sort of fury of literature, and gave their
whole lives to it, spending days over a page, and years over a book,
pursuing art as Englishmen pursue money, building up a romance as if it
were a business. Now Mr. Taylor held firmly by the “walking-stick”
theory; he believed that a man of letters should have a real
profession, some solid employment in life. “Get something to do,” he
would have liked to say, “and then you can write as much as you please.
Look at Scott, look at Dickens and Trollope.” And then there was the
social point of view; it might be right, or it might be wrong, but
there could be no doubt that the literary man, as such, was not thought
much of in English society. Mr. Taylor knew his Thackeray, and he
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