The House of Defence v. 2Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
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The House of Defence v. 2
Benson, E. F. (Edward Frederic)
Christian Science -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Spiritual healing -- Fiction
Bertie Cochrane had taken them straight across by ferry to their house
in Long Island, near Port Washington, had seen them comfortably
installed, and returned in the evening to his flat in town. As regards
Thurso, the spiritual conflict of the Divine and Infinite against all
that was mortal and mistaken had begun, and of the ultimate issue of
that he had no doubts whatever. But there was another conflict before
him, more difficult than that--a conflict of things that were all good,
but yet seemed to be unreconcilable; and as he sat now, after eating the
one dish of vegetables which was his dinner, he felt torn by these fine
conflicting forces.
For to-morrow, at the joint request of Thurso and his sister, he was
going down to stay with them. That arrangement he could not refuse.
Since they were so kind as to ask him, it was better in every way, as
regards the cure he was undertaking, to do so. Thus, all day and every
day he would see and be with the girl whom he loved with all the
intensity of his jubilant and vital soul. Yet, since he would be there
only as a healer, and since, except as a healer, he would never have
been there, he knew that he must entirely swamp and drown all his
private concerns. He must say no word, make no sign. Even that was not
enough, he feared. He must school himself to feel no longing. His love
itself must be drowned--that strong and beautiful thing--while he was
there; for he would be there _only_ as one who could bring, and had
promised to bring, light to this man who was obscured by error. That
would be the sole reason for his presence there, and it was worth not a
moment of further debate or argument. And as he sat here now, he
wondered if he was strong enough to do what he knew he must do, or
whether, even at the eleventh hour, it was better to refuse to go to
Long Island at all, but send someone else. On the other hand, he had
himself promised to cure Thurso. He and his sister had come from England
on that express understanding and under promise. But would it not be
better to break that rather than lead himself into the temptation of
using for his own ends the opportunity that had been given to him, and
accepted by him, of demonstrating the eternal truth which was more real
than any human love?
He knew, too, the hourly difficulties that his position would entail.
Lady Maud thirsted for more knowledge about the truth which she already
believed, and it would be he, naturally, who would talk to her about it,
sitting opposite her, and seeing the glowing light of the knowledge that
was being unveiled in her eyes. And yet all the time he must keep his
thoughts away from her--see nothing, know nothing, except what he
taught her. Not a thought could be spared to anything else; he would be
there to heal, and while he healed all that was his belonged to two
persons only--his Master and his patient.
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