The Jessica Letters: An Editor's RomanceHarris, Corra
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The Jessica Letters: An Editor's Romance
Harris, Corra
Editors -- Fiction
But granting all you say to be true, that every man has a personal life
and at the same time a universal life energy as well, that there is in him
a little domestic fortress of love, and a battle power of life
apart,--admitting all this, how do you reconcile justice with the fact
that you frankly offer only half of your duality for all of Jessica? Have
you never suspected that she also has fair kingdoms of thought apart from
your science of her? My Prophet, it is you who have discovered them to me!
Love has added a sweet Canaan to my little hemisphere. I have heard
invisible birds singing, I have trysted with spirits of the air since I
knew you. And I have felt the pangs of a consciousness in me so new and so
tender, that I am no longer merely the maid you know, but, dear Master, I
am some one else, near and kin to you as life and spirit are kin! What is
this strange white space in my soul that love has made, so real, yet so
holy that I dare not myself lift the veil of consciousness before it? And
all I know is that I shall meet you there finally heart to heart!--Philip,
kiss me! For I am a frightened white-winged stranger in my own new heavens
and new earth. I am no longer as you imagine, simply one, but I have a
foreign power of life and death in me, and the fact terrifies me.
You declare that there is a difference and a distance between a man's love
and a man's mind which account for his dual nature. There is also an
intelligence of the heart, more astute, more vital, which divides woman's
nature also between the abandon of love and the resentment of
understanding. We know, and we do not know, and we _feel_. What we know is
of little consequence, what we feel is written upon the faces of each
succeeding generation. But what we do _not_ know constitutes that element
of mystery in us that makes us also dual. For we feel and suspect further
than we can understand. Thus, your faculty for projecting yourself in
spirit further than I can follow, excites in me a terror of loneliness
that sharpens into resentment. I am widowed by the loss of the higher half
of your entity. Can you not see, Philip, it is not your views I combat,
your theory about humanitarianism and all that? They are but the
geometrical figures of thought in your mind; and I have no wish to disturb
your "philosophic proposition." The point is, I love that in you more than
I love the lover. And the passion with which you cling to it as something
apart from our relationship offends me, excites forebodings. Tell me, are
"philosophic propositions" alien to love? And after all do you think you
are the only one who may claim them? This is a secret,--I have a little
diagram of feminine wisdom hid away from you somewhere, founded upon the
wit of love. And we shall see which lasts the longer, your proposition or
my understanding!
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