She was afraid to press the point, nor dare she, at present, invite the
confidence of one who was so great a stranger to her. Sooner or later
it would be necessary to abase herself before this man who had thrust
himself unluckily into her life and made such quick use of his
advantages. Evelyn perceived immediately that she must go to Count
Odin and say, "My father does not know that I am Etta Romney. Please
do not tell him." And this was far from being the whole penalty of the
accident. A glimmer of the truth could come to her already as a
spectre which henceforth must haunt her life. She knew that her father
had spent some years in Roumania, and that nothing would induce him to
revisit that country wherein he had married Dora d'Istran. In the same
breath, she told herself that this man was a Roumanian and acquainted
with her father's story.
Had she been entirely honest with herself she would have gone on to
admit a certain fascination in the mystery which she could neither
account for nor take arms against. Count Odin was like no other man
she had known. She had tried to deceive herself in London with the
imagined belief that she never wished to see him again. Many times,
however, since she had returned to Derbyshire this very desire would
assert itself. She found herself, against her will and reason,
covertly hoping that she might hear his story from his own lips. A
psychologist would have held that there was a certain affinity between
the two, and that she had become the victim of it unconsciously. Her
fear was of a splendid fascination she had become aware of and could
not resist. She imagined that she would obey this man if he commanded
her, despite her resolute will and almost eccentric originality. And
this she feared even more than her own secret.
It is to be imagined how the suspense of Count Odin's illness tried
nerves as high strung as those of Evelyn, and with what expectation she
awaited the hour when he would recover consciousness. Her desire had
become that of knowing the worst as speedily as might be; and the worst
she certainly would not know until consciousness returned and some good
excuse might admit her to the sick man's room. Hourly, almost, she
asked the news of Dr. Philips and received the strictly professional
answer:
"An ordinary case--no cause for worry at all--don't think about it."
To the Doctor's inquiry what she knew of Count Odin she merely said
that she had heard of him in London and believed that his father had
been the Earl's friend many years ago. This did not in any way
disguise her unrest, and the Doctor would have been more than human had
he not put his own construction upon it.
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