Rotha was at first divided between the pleasure of seeing things, and a
somewhat uneasy reflection upon her own appearance. She was not in
general a self-conscious child; very much the reverse; but to-day she was
with Mr. Digby, and she had an exalted idea of the requirements of
everything even remotely connected with him. She was going in his
company; under his charge; how did she look? She was not satisfied on
that point. Mr. Digby himself was always so nice and perfect in his
dress, she said to herself; she ought to be very nice to go with him.
Truly she had put on the best she had; a white cambrick frock; it was
clean and white; but Rotha had none but her everyday brown straw hat, and
she knew _that_ was not "smart"; and her dress, she pondered it as she
went along, she was sure it was very old-fashioned indeed. Certainly it
was not made like the dresses of other girls of her own age, whom she saw
in the car or on the sidewalk. Theirs were ruffled; hers was plain; theirs
generally stood out in an imposing manner; while her own clung in slim
folds around her slim little person. She concluded that she could not be
in any degree what Mrs. Marble called "stylish." The exact meaning of
that word indeed Rotha could not define; undefinedly she felt it to be
something vastly desirable. She decided in her own mind that Mr. Digby
was stylish; which it is true proved that the young girl had a nice
feeling for things; since the fact, which was undoubted, was entirely
unaccompanied by anything in matter or manner of wearing which could take
the vulgar eye. Would he dislike going in public, she wondered, with a
little figure like herself? She hoped not, she thought not; but thought
it with a curious independence, which I am afraid was really born of
pride though it took the semblance of good sense.
Gradually the interest of other figures made Rotha forget her own. They
came out from the poor part of the city where she dwelt; streets grew
wide and shops lofty and imposing; equipages drove along, outstripping
the slow-going car; and in them, what ladies, and what gentlemen, and
what little girls now and then! This was the wonderful New York, at which
she had now and then had a peep; this was something five hundred miles
removed from Jane Street. What sort of human beings were these? and what
sort of life did they live? and did money make all the difference, or was
there some more intrinsic and essential distinction between them and
their fellows in Abingdon Square? At any rate, how very, very much better
off they were!
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