Korean War, 1950-1953 -- United States -- Fiction; War stories
The Colonel looked at him steadily for a moment, coldly. Mannix was no
longer a simple doubter but the heretic, and was about to receive
judgment. Yet there was still an almost paternal reluctance in
Templeton’s voice as he spoke, slowly and very softly, out of the
troops’ hearing: “Captain Mannix, I want you to go in on the trucks.”
“No, sir,” Mannix said hoarsely, “I’m going to make this march.”
The Colonel looked utterly whipped; gray bags of fatigue hung beneath
his eyes. He seemed no longer to have strength enough to display his odd
theatrical smile; his posture was taut and vaguely stooped, the
unmistakable bent-kneed stance of a man with blisters, and Culver was
forced to concede--with a sense of mountainous despair--that he _had_
made the march after all, somewhere toward the rear and for legitimate
reasons of his own, even if Mannix now was too blind, too outraged, to
tell. _Goddam_, Culver heard himself moaning aloud, _if just he only
hadn’t made it_, but he heard the Colonel go on coolly: “Not with that
foot you aren’t.” He glanced down. The Captain’s ankle had swollen to a
fat milky purple above the top of his shoe; he was unable to touch his
heel to the ground even if he had wanted to. “Not with that foot,” he
repeated.
Mannix was silent, panting deeply--not as if taken aback at all, but
only as if gathering wind for an outburst. He and the Colonel gazed at
each other, twin profiles embattled against an escarpment of pines, the
chaste blue sky of morning. “Listen, Colonel,” he rasped, “you ordered
this goddam hike and I’m going to walk it even if I haven’t got one
goddam man left. You can crap out yourself for half the march--” Culver
wanted desperately, somehow, by any means to stop him--not just because
he was pulling catastrophe down on his head but because it was simply no
longer worth the effort. Couldn’t he see? That the Colonel didn’t care
and that was that? That with him the hike had had nothing to do with
courage or sacrifice or suffering, but was only a task to be performed,
that whatever he was he was no coward, he had marched the whole way--or
most of it, any idiot could see that--and that he was as far removed
from the vulgar battle, the competition, which Mannix had tried to
promote as the frozen, remotest stars. He just didn’t care. Culver
strove, in a sick, heaving effort, to rise, to go and somehow separate
them, but Mannix was charging on: “You run your troops. Fine. O.K. But
what’s all this about crapping out--”
“Wait a minute, Captain, now--” the Colonel blurted ominously. “For your
information--”
“_Fuck_ you and your information,” said Mannix in a hoarse, choked
voice. He was almost sobbing. “If you think--”
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