The average person comes through all right. He is selfish, easy-going,
pleasure-loving, absolutely without a conscience, for the simple reason
that he never thinks. But he is a jolly good companion; and the
Freemasonry of a Public School is amazing. No man who has been through a
good school can be an outsider. He may hang round the Empire bar, he may
cheat at business; but you can be certain of one thing, he will never
let you down. Very few Public School men ever do a mean thing to their
friends. And for a system that produces such a spirit there is something
to be said after all.
But for the boy with a personality school is very dangerous. Being
powerful, he can do nothing by halves; his actions influence not only
himself, but many others. On his surroundings during the time of
transition from boyhood to manhood depend to a great extent the
influence that man will work in the world. He will do whatever he does
on a large scale, and people are bound to look at him. He may stand at
the head of the procession of progress; he may dash himself to pieces
fighting for a worthless cause; and by the splendour of his contest draw
many to him. More likely he will be like Byron, a wonderful,
irresponsible creature, who at one time plumbed the depths, and at
another swept the heavens--a creature irresistibly attractive, because
he is irresistibly human. Gordon was a personality. His preparatory
school master said of him once: "He will be a great failure or a great
success, perhaps both," and it was the truest thing ever said of him. At
present the future was very uncertain. During his first year he had been
imbibing knowledge from his contemporaries; he had been a spectator; now
the time had come for him to take his part in the drama of Fernhurst
life. All ignorant he went his way; careless, arrogant and proud.
It must be owned that during this year Gordon was rather an
objectionable person. He was very much above himself. For five years he
had been tightly held in check, and when freedom at last came he did not
quite know how to use it. He was boisterous and noisy; always in the
middle of everything. If ever there was a row in the studies, it would
be a sure assumption that Caruthers was mixed up in it. Everything
combined to give him a slack time.
Ferguson was head of the House. But he took only a casual interest in
its welfare.
"My dear Betteridge," he used to say, "if you were aware of the large
issues of art and life, you would see that it would be a mere waste of
time worrying about such a little thing as discipline in a house. You
should widen your intellectual horizon. Read Verlaine and Baudelaire and
then see life as it is."
Ferguson was a poet; twice a term the school magazine was enriched with
a poem from his pen. His last effort was called _Languor_, and opened
with the line:
"In amber dreams of amorous despair."
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