The Maidens' Lodge; or, None of Self and All of Thee: (In the Reign of Queen Anne)Holt, Emily Sarah
History
The Maidens' Lodge; or, None of Self and All of Thee: (In the Reign of Queen Anne)
Holt, Emily Sarah
Great Britain -- History -- Anne, 1702-1714 -- Fiction
"I ask your pardon, Madam; but--"
"Well, my dear, if you have something you wish to say, I am ready to
listen to it," said Madam, with an air of extreme benignity.
Phoebe felt her position the more difficult because of her grandmother's
graciousness. She so evidently thought herself conferring a favour on a
portionless and unattractive girl, that it became hard to say an
opposing word.
"If you please, Madam, and asking your pardon, must I be married?"
"Must you be married, child!" repeated Madam in astonished tones, "Why,
of course you must. The woman is created for the man. You would not
die a maid?"
"I would rather, if you would allow me, Madam," faltered Phoebe.
"But, my dear, I cannot allow it. I should not be doing my duty by you
if I did. The woman is made for the man," repeated Madam,
sententiously.
"But--was every woman made for some man, if you please, Madam?" asked
poor Phoebe, struggling against destiny in the person of her
grandmother.
"Of course, child--no doubt of it," said Madam.
"Then, if you please, Madam, might I not wait till I find the man I was
made for?" entreated Phoebe with unconscious humour.
"When you marry a man, my dear, he is the man you were made for,"
oracularly replied Madam.
Phoebe was silenced, but not at all convinced, which is a very different
thing. She could remember a good many husbands and wives with whom she
had met who so far as she could judge, did not appear to have been
created for the benefit of one another.
"And I trust you will find him at Delawarr Court. At all events, you
will look out. As to waiting, my dear, at your age, and in your
station, you cannot afford to wait. One or two years is no matter for
Rhoda; but 'twill not serve for you. I was married before I was your
age, Phoebe."
Phoebe sighed, but did not venture to speak. She felt more than ever as
if she were being led to the slaughter. There was just this
uncomfortable difference, that the sacrificed sheep or goat did not feel
anything when once it was over, and the parallel would not hold good
there. She felt utterly helpless. Phoebe knew her mother too well to
venture on any appeal to her, even had she fondly imagined that
representations from Mrs Latrobe would have weight with Madam. Mrs
Latrobe would have been totally unable to comprehend her. So Phoebe did
what was better,--carried her trial and perplexity to her Father in
Heaven, and asked Him to undertake for her. Naturally shy and timid, it
was a terrible idea to Phoebe that she was to be handed over bodily in
this style to some stranger. Rhoda would not have cared; a change was
always welcome to her, and she thought a great deal about the superior
position of a matron. But in Phoebe's eyes the position presented
superior responsibility, a thing she dreaded; and superior notoriety, a
thing she detested. She was a violet, born to blush unseen, yet
believing that perfume shed upon the desert air is not necessarily
wasted.
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