Adventure stories; Countesses -- Fiction; Lawyers -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction; Love stories; Trials (Murder) -- Fiction
So he stood that day, a fraud, a living sham, a man who took credit
for achievements which were not his, for work which he, unaided, could
never have brought to a successful accomplishment. And the worst of his
position was, as he now felt it, that the excuse he might make told
against him, was, in fact, the crux of his situation. For its avowal,
the confession of the fraud, was out of the question. Were he not bound
in honour to the friend, to whom he owed everything, not to divulge
the secret; could he for very shame make it known that for years he
had been living and thriving and gaining fame by another man’s brains?
True, the situation had been acquiesced in by the other man, but would
that be accepted as an excuse by the world which had hailed him,
Geoffrey Herriard, as a supremely clever fellow? The world would feel
it had been swindled out of its applause; it would turn and resent the
cheat.
Then, supposing he cared nothing for the world and its sneers, that
he was prepared to brazen the matter out, should it come to light, to
let its success justify the trick, how would it be with Alexia? Could
he ever hope to rehabilitate himself in her eyes? He told himself, he
knew it with absolute conviction, that she was as the soul of honour;
how could he declare himself to her as an incarnation of falsehood?
Sometimes he felt he could wish that she were guilty of this charge;
it would at most have been a venial crime, and it would bring them a
little nearer to an equality in wrong-doing.
Then, often, in the conflict of his love, he would wish that he could
break himself free of Gastineau: that he could run alone now, looking
upon the past partnership as a term of mere pardonable tutelage. Then
honour, never driven out from his false life, would rise and rebuke
him for ingratitude. Still, he would argue, the bond between himself
and Gastineau could scarcely be expected to run for the term of their
lives. It would have to be determined sooner or later; and, after all,
the benefit derived from the partnership was in some degree mutual. The
sword which Gastineau had put into his hand, and the skill in fence
which he had taught him, had been greatly used to stab the disabled
fencer’s rivals and enemies, to prevent them from profiting by the
disappearance of their old adversary. In the intoxicating whirl of
success which had hurried him onwards and upwards, Herriard had not
found pause to realize the true, inevitable logic of his position. Love
was now the Nemesis which was bringing it bitterly home to him.
And that same night the foreshadowing of another and totally
unthought-of contingency rose to disturb him. This time it came from
his fellow guest, and in this way.
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