On one occasion, when Strickland was so much better that in a day or
two he was to get up, I sat with them in the studio. Dirk and I were
talking. Mrs. Stroeve sewed, and I thought I recognised the shirt she
was mending as Strickland’s. He lay on his back; he did not speak. Once
I saw that his eyes were fixed on Blanche Stroeve, and there was in
them a curious irony. Feeling their gaze, she raised her own, and for a
moment they stared at one another. I could not quite understand her
expression. Her eyes had in them a strange perplexity, and perhaps—but
why?—alarm. In a moment Strickland looked away and idly surveyed the
ceiling, but she continued to stare at him, and now her look was quite
inexplicable.
In a few days Strickland began to get up. He was nothing but skin and
bone. His clothes hung upon him like rags on a scarecrow. With his
untidy beard and long hair, his features, always a little larger than
life, now emphasised by illness, he had an extraordinary aspect; but it
was so odd that it was not quite ugly. There was something monumental
in his ungainliness. I do not know how to express precisely the
impression he made upon me. It was not exactly spirituality that was
obvious, though the screen of the flesh seemed almost transparent,
because there was in his face an outrageous sensuality; but, though it
sounds nonsense, it seemed as though his sensuality were curiously
spiritual. There was in him something primitive. He seemed to partake
of those obscure forces of nature which the Greeks personified in
shapes part human and part beast, the satyr and the faun. I thought of
Marsyas, whom the god flayed because he had dared to rival him in song.
Strickland seemed to bear in his heart strange harmonies and
unadventured patterns, and I foresaw for him an end of torture and
despair. I had again the feeling that he was possessed of a devil; but
you could not say that it was a devil of evil, for it was a primitive
force that existed before good and ill.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account