Flies buzzed against the walls and fell back upon the half-washed table
coverings and the cracked cruets opaque from many fillings.
Mr. Farley stirred gray crystals of sugar into the gold-edged blackness
of his coffee, then clouded it with the pale blue-auraed milk that
brimmed the squat white pitcher.
He tried to think things out, but he had nurtured his self-esteem on the
verity of abnegation and it was hard for him to accept as a blessing the
thing which it had given him so much comfort to do without.
Safe in the conviction that there would be no end to his sacrifice, he
had allowed full abandon to his mystical and repressed nature. Helen
Wilson had become glorified and beyond attainment. He was in terror of
seeing her too clearly. When her neat figure, a little stout, emerged
distinctly from the chaos of his reflections, he deliberately let down a
curtain of confusion across the mirror of his consciousness.
* * * * *
After dinner Mr. Farley went into the living-room and seated himself in
an armchair. He had scarcely exchanged a word with any one during the
meal. He bent his head in his hands. The light from the shaded lamp
glistened obliquely along the thin parting of his hair and his baldish
scalp.
Mrs. Farley made pretexts to come near him. In the afternoon she had
been mending a nightdress of May's and left it on top of the magazine
rack, and now she came to get it.
She was a long time putting her sewing things together. Mr. Farley saw
her, but he did not stir.
Alice had followed her mother into the room and halted abruptly behind
her.
Mrs. Farley did not see Alice. Mr. Farley started a little, glanced at
his daughter, and looked away again.
Alice, watching the two people, felt the atmosphere of the room weighted
with inertias. These people forced her back into herself, into her own
dumbness. She wanted to shatter her silence with their cries.
"Turn around here and look at Papa, Mamma," Alice said suddenly.
Mrs. Farley would not look. "Your father knows what I think," she said
after a minute. She glanced at Alice.
Mrs. Farley wore her pince-nez and the irridescence of glass added
remoteness to her hostile uneasy eyes. The gold clasp drawing the flesh
together on her nose gave a twist of severity to her dry obscure face.
Her hate seemed to flow uncertainly through the crystals and flash
defiance in the gold center. The little gold clasp of the pince-nez was
like the claw of impotence buried in its own flesh.
Alice tapped the floor with her foot. "Do you know what Mamma thinks,
Papa? I'm sure I don't."
Mr. Farley stared under his fingers at the floor where the dim pattern
of the carpet grew more dim. "I know what you have told me."
"I can't stand the atmosphere here. If you and she don't find some way
to talk it out you'll drive Laurence and me insane."
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