He waited what seemed to him a long time, forcing himself to perform
certain trifling things needful in the studio, yet Mrs. Greyson had
only been able to get fairly to work before she heard his footstep, and
then his tap upon her door.
He entered the studio almost hesitatingly, and after the usual
greetings stood looking gravely at the disfigured clay.
"I began to think you were never coming to restore it," he remarked,
breaking at last the silence.
"I could not bear to touch it," she returned, not caring to confess
that she had also wished to avoid him until time should have restored
his usual self-control. "But I determined yesterday to begin this
morning, only strangely enough I went to church for the first time
since I came from Europe."
"Ah!" returned Herman smiling. "I often go to church when I am not too
busy."
"I hardly supposed that a Pagan was guilty of going to any church where
he could not worship Pasht."
"One can worship whatever deity he pleases in whatever temple, I
suppose," was his rejoinder. "I'm catholic in my tastes. I do not so
much mind what people worship, if they are only sincere about it."
"It must be a great comfort to believe every thing, if one only could."
"There is often danger," he observed, "that we assume it to be a
weakness to believe any thing."
"It is, I'm afraid," replied she, turning her face from him and
seemingly intent upon her modeling.
"At least we believe in work," Herman answered, "else we are not
artists. You certainly find joy and support in your art."
"Yes," Helen said with a sigh; "but I fancy the joy of creation, great
as it is, can never be so satisfying to a woman as to a man. It is
humiliating to confess--or it is presumptuous to boast, I am not sure
which--but a woman is never so fully an artist as a man. He is in great
moments all artist; but a woman is never able to lay herself aside even
in her most imaginative moods."
"I cannot think you wholly right," her master returned smiling; "but to
go back a little, at least faith is woman's peculiar province and
prerogative. We seem nowadays to pride ourselves upon being superior to
belief in any thing; but it is really a poor enough hypocrisy. If we
really believed nothing, should we ever give up a single selfish desire
or combat any impulse that seizes us. For my part, I am glad to find
men better than their professions. But this," he added with his genial
smile, "is more of a sermon, very likely, than you heard at church."
"I at least agree with it better than the one I heard at church this
morning. The preacher patronized the Deity so that he shocked me."
"That troubles me at church," Herman assented; "preachers are so
irreverent."
Helen stepped back to observe the effects of the work she was doing.
"Do you think," she ventured, "that it would be possible for me to
induce Ninitta to pose again for the May? If I told her that I am not
angry, that I understand, and that----"
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