This queer dry saying was so much more terrible than any outcry, that she remained, deprived even of the power of breathing, with her eyes still fixed on Miltoun's face. The smile of the old Cardinal had come up there, and was to her like a living accusation. It seemed strange that the hum of the bees and flies and the gentle swishing of the limetree should still go on outside, insisting that there was a world moving and breathing apart from her, and careless of her misery. Then some of her courage came back, and with it her woman's mute power. It came haunting about her face, perfectly still, about her lips, sensitive and drawn, about her eyes, dark, almost mutinous under their arched brows. She stood, drawing him with silence and beauty. At last he spoke: “I have made a foolish mistake, it seems. I believed you were free.” Her lips just moved for the words to pass: “I thought you knew. I never, dreamed you would want to marry me.” It seemed to her natural that he should be thinking only of himself, but with the subtlest defensive instinct, she put forward her own tragedy: “I suppose I had got too used to knowing I was dead.” “Is there no release?” “None. We have neither of us done wrong; besides with him, marriage is—for ever.” “My God!” She had broken his smile, which had been cruel without meaning to be cruel; and with a smile of her own that was cruel too, she said: “I didn't know that you believed in release either.” Then, as though she had stabbed herself in stabbing him, her face quivered. He looked at her now, conscious at last that she was suffering. And she felt that he was holding himself in with all his might from taking her again into his arms. Seeing this, the warmth crept back to her lips, and a little light into her eyes, which she kept hidden from him. Though she stood so proudly still, some wistful force was coming from her, as from a magnet, and Miltoun's hands and arms and face twitched as though palsied. This struggle, dumb and pitiful, seemed never to be coming to an end in the little white room, darkened by the thatch of the verandah, and sweet with the scent of pinks and of a wood fire just lighted somewhere out at the back. Then, without a word, he turned and went out. She heard the wicket gate swing to. He was gone. CHAPTER XVI