That word free did not have its full meaning for her. She had never
known what real freedom was; women of the comfortable class--and men,
too, for that matter--usually are born into the petty slavery of
conventions at least, and know nothing else their whole lives
through--never know the joy of the thought and the act of a free mind
and a free heart. Still, she was released from a bondage that seemed
slavish even to her, and the release gave her a sensation akin to the
joy of freedom. A heavy hand that was crushing her very soul had been
lifted off--no, FLUNG off, and by herself. That thought, terrifying
though it was, also gave her a certain new and exalting self-respect.
After all, she was not a worm. She must have somewhere in her the
germs of something less contemptible than the essential character of so
many of the eminently respectable women she knew. She could picture
them in the situation in which she had found herself. What would they
have done? Why, what every instinct of her education impelled her to
do; what some latent love of freedom, some unsuspected courage of
self-respect had forbidden her to do, had withheld her from doing.
Her thoughts and the gorgeous sunshine and her youth and health put her
in a steadily less cheerless mood as by a roundabout way she sought the
shop of the jeweler who sold the general the gold bag she had selected.
The proprietor himself was in the front part of the shop and received
"Madame la Generale" with all the honors of her husband's wealth. She
brought no experience and no natural trading talent to the enterprise
she was about to undertake; so she went directly to the main point.
"This bag," said she, laying it upon the glass between them, "I bought
it here a short time ago."
"I remember perfectly, madame. It is the handsomest, the most
artistic, we have sold this year."
"I wish to sell it back to you," said she.
"You wish to get something else and include it as part payment, madame?"
"No, I wish to get the money for it."
"Ah, but that is difficult. We do not often make those arrangements.
Second-hand articles--"
"But the bag is quite new. Anyhow, it must have some value. Of course
I'd not expect the full price."
The jeweler smiled. "The full price? Ah, madame, we should not think
of offering it again as it is. We should--"
"No matter," interrupted Mildred. The man's expression--the normally
pleasant and agreeable countenance turned to repulsive by craft and
lying--made her eager to be gone. "What is the most you will give me?"
"I shall have to consider--"
"I've only a few minutes. Please do not irritate me."
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