"Anybody may be strong and rich," she thought. "But to have
genius!—that is best of all—that is above everything." In her girlish
judgment no doubt existed that Colin's power held the Divine spark
which means so very much more than mere talent.
Presently she woke to her own abstraction, and consequent silence. A
side-glance revealed the gravity of her companion's look. Their eyes
met, and he said—
"You are thoughtful to-day."
She would not let slip her thoughts. He and she were friends; but she
had her reservations. Who has not, with the dearest of friends? Two
days earlier she might have chatted frankly of Colin and his pursuit;
but now she was not able. She could not forget the experience of the
day before, and Giles' anger. The latter had made her afraid of a false
step; and she was still more afraid of awakening in herself renewed
sensations of consciousness. It was safer to keep to the surface.
So she launched into light chatter about Castle Hill and Midfell;
making little jests, laughing, and doing her best to make him laugh.
For the moment she succeeded. Her winsome ways captivated him anew; and
his very silence, the reluctance of his smile, his absorption in what
she said, all drew her out, making it easy to pour out her thoughts.
Yet she was keenly alive to the contrast between this morning and
previous mornings. Being with Giles after being with Colin was
like walking on a level plain after climbing a mountain peak. The
simplicity, the whole-heartedness, were refreshing; but she found
herself longing for the mountain-heights.
The two men were different in mind as in body. With Colin she had a
sense of inferiority; a consciousness of being pulled to a higher
level. She was fascinated, and afraid; not sure how far she understood;
eager to understand more; delighted when he responded; ready at any
moment to fall flat, if he treated a remark with indifference.
With Giles she had no especial sense of inferiority, unless in respect
of muscles. She was aware of her power over him, aware that she could
make him like her—perhaps as much as she willed. She knew she could
touch his happiness: and she was dimly conscious now that something
connected with herself made him unhappy.
Once, Giles had had the feeling that he could do what he chose with
Phyllys. That had been a momentary sensation, true, but fleeting. In
the studio, on his entrance, he had known that "Colin" could do what he
willed with Phyllys; and the mad pain and wrath which carried him away
would have opened his eyes, had they not been opened already, to the
nature of his love.
To-day it was Phyllys who felt that she could do what she desired with
Giles; that she could twist this powerful man, if she would, round her
slim little finger.
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