Female friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Paris (France) -- Fiction; Women -- Fiction
“It was sufficient for me. There could not be a stronger reason for
divorce than absence of love on either side.”
“The world does not agree with you,” she said.
“Yet I fancy Martha would. If it came to remarriage on either side, her
verdict would perhaps be condemnation; but I think she would consider
separation a higher thing than a loveless marriage.”
Somehow, there was a spirit in these words that touched her heart. Her
voice, for the first time, was a little unsteady as she said:
“You do believe that, at least! You do feel that I could never think of
another marriage!”
“I have always felt it. Indeed, I may say I have known it. I know that
you see the inevitableness of all this as clearly as I do. I have often
wished, for your sake, that I had never seen you, to put this blight
upon your life.”
“And have not I also blighted yours? Do you suppose that I never think
of that?”
“It need not trouble you, if you do. In my case there was a
compensation, and a sufficient one. In your case there is none.”
She knew what he meant; that his love for her, and that happy month of
marriage, had been enough to pay him for having afterward lost her; and
she knew that he held the fact that she had never really loved him to
have barred her from any compensation at all. Why did she so resent his
assuming this? Had she not told him, in language of such emphatic
decision that it rang even now in her ears, that she had found out that
she had made a great mistake, and that she had never loved him? He had
simply taken her at her word.
She wilfully ignored the true meaning of his last words, as she went on:
“It is a mistake to think that my life has no compensations. My work,
whether it ever amounts to anything or not, is a great compensation.
The friendship of Martha is another. You are very good to wish not to
take that from me; but the present sham conditions cannot be kept up
after we separate. Fortune has favored us almost miraculously as it is.
She heard that there was a Russian princess studying here, and some one
mistakenly pointed me out for her. I had already seen her name on her
canvases, and knowing that your mother and sisters were in Paris, of
course I knew exactly who she was. Independent of this, her face and
manner had strongly attracted me, so I saw no reason why we might not be
friends, provided I could keep from her who I was. As soon as I saw that
she believed me to be the princess, the fact that my aunt was a Russian
and had Russian servants opened the way to my carrying on the idea; and
so far there has been no trouble. My little Russian name for Sophia
helped me, too. If she had known me as Sophia or Sophie, she would
probably have recoiled from me, even if she had had no suspicion as to
my identity.”
“I beg you not to have that thought,” said Harold. “If the time ever
comes when the truth must be declared to Martha, let me be the one to
tell her; and I promise you there shall be no recoil--no lessening of
her friendship for you.”
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