Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Washington (D.C.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
It was very late, but sleep was impossible, and picking up his hat
and stick he whistled to Sandy and the two went out into the almost
deserted streets. The dog leaped about him with quick, joyous barks,
rejoicing in the unexpected outing, and Fox turned his face northward,
walking steadily along the brilliantly lighted and strangely quiet
avenue which led him through the heart of the northwest section and
up on the hill. The tumult of his mind found relief in the physical
exercise and the fresh cold air of an early April night.
In spite of that central egotism of his, which was capable of much when
unkindly stirred, Fox believed that he possessed strong convictions on
the nicer points of honor. If he had drifted often to White’s house and
been much in Margaret’s society it was with no intention of offending
against his host. His indolence, his carelessness of what was mere
gossip and tittle-tattle, had made him indifferent to the conclusions
of others, but he was not unaware of the talk and the surmises of his
enemies; he was not unaware that Margaret stood on delicate ground
and that, if she separated from White, there would be a wild burst of
excited comment--the comment which costs a woman her good name. Such
being the case she had suddenly thrown herself upon his sympathy, she
had torn away the thin veil of conventionality which had saved them,
and it was for him to desert her or to defend her when the supreme
moment came.
That moment would involve not only his own happiness but--he paused in
his thoughts with a shock of feeling which flooded his consciousness
with a lucidity, an insight, which appalled him. Was he mistaken, or
did it also involve the happiness of the young and innocent girl whom
he loved? At the thought of Rose his heart sank; he felt instinctively
her abhorrence, her complete lack of understanding of his peculiar
situation. To Rose’s mind, doubtless, he would appear in the likeness
of Mephistopheles!
Good God, what would she think of him? he thought; but yesterday he
had held her hand, looked into her pure, young eyes, almost spoken
the final words which would have laid bare his very soul--and now!
He seemed to feel the heated, perfumed atmosphere, the pressure
of Margaret’s fingers on his arm, her wild, sweet smile when she
proclaimed her love for him without shame--how vividly he saw it!
And her absolute belief in his unchanged love for her! Infatuation,
madness, self-deception, it might be all these and more, but she was a
woman--and she had flung herself upon his mercy!
As yet that other aspect of the affair, the blighting of his public
career which such a scandal might in a measure effect, had not thrust
itself upon him; his only thought was for Rose. In that hour he learned
how profoundly he loved her; it was part of his nature that the very
denial of a gift increased his desire to obtain it.
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