Fantasy fiction; Horror tales; Paranormal fiction; Supernatural -- Fiction
Herbert glanced reflectively at his companion. ‘You mustn’t let me tire
you,’ he said; ‘but even on our theory it would not necessarily follow
that you yourself would be much affected. It’s true this fellow
Sabathier really was something of a personality. He had a rather
unusual itch for life, for trying on and on to squeeze something out of
experience that isn’t there; and he seemed never to weary of a
magnificent attempt to find in his fellow-creatures, especially in the
women he met, what even—if they have it—they cannot give. The little
book I wanted to show you is partly autobiographical and really does
manage to set the fellow on his feet. Even there he does absolutely
take one’s imagination. I shall never forget the thrill of picking him
up in the Charing Cross Road. You see, I had known the queer old
tombstone for years. He’s enormously vivid—quite beyond my feebleness
to describe, with a kind of French verve and rapture. Unluckily we
can’t get nearer than two years to his death. I shouldn’t mind guessing
some last devastating dream swept over him, held him the breath of an
instant too long beneath the wave, and he caved in. We know he killed
himself; and perhaps lived to regret it ever after.
‘After all, what is this precious dying we talk so much about?’ Herbert
continued after a while, his eyes restlessly wandering from shelf to
shelf. ‘You remember our talk in the churchyard? We all know that the
body fades quick enough when its occupant is gone. Supposing even in
the sleep of the living it lies very feebly guarded. And supposing in
that state some infernally potent thing outside it, wandering
disembodied, just happens on it—like some hungry sexton beetle on the
carcase of a mouse. Supposing—I know it’s the most outrageous
theorising—but supposing all these years of sun and dark, Sabathier’s
emanation, or whatever you like to call it, horribly restless, by some
fatality longing on and on just for life, or even for the face, the
voice, of some “impossible she” whom he couldn’t get in this muddled
world, simply loathing all else; supposing he has been lingering in
ambush down beside those poor old dusty bones that had poured out for
him such marrowy hospitality—oh, I know it; the dead do. And then, by a
chance, one quiet autumn evening, a veritable godsend of a little Miss
Muffet comes wandering down under the shade of his immortal cypresses,
half asleep, fagged out, depressed in mind and body, perhaps: imagine
yourself in his place, and he in yours!’ Herbert stood up in his
eagerness, his sleek hair shining. ‘The one clinching chance of a
century! Wouldn’t you have made a fight for it? Wouldn’t you have
risked the raid? I can just conceive it—the amazing struggle in that
darkness within a darkness; like some dazed alien bee bursting through
the sentinels of a hive; one mad impetuous clutch at victory; then the
appalling stirring on the other side; the groping back to a house
dismantled, rearranged, not, mind you, disorganised or
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