The Road to UnderstandingPorter, Eleanor H. (Eleanor Hodgman)
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The Road to Understanding
Porter, Eleanor H. (Eleanor Hodgman)
Marriage -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction
For all that Burke was away so many evenings now, Helen was not so
lonely as she had been in the spring; for in Mrs. Jones's place had come
a new neighbor, Mrs. Cobb. And Mrs. Cobb was even brighter and more
original than Mrs. Jones ever was, and Helen liked her very much. She
was a mine of information as to housekeeping secrets, and she was
teaching Helen how to make the soft and dainty little garments that
would be needed in November. But she talked even more loudly than Mrs.
Jones had talked; and her laugh was nearly always the first sound that
Burke heard across the hall every morning. Moreover, she possessed a
phonograph which, according to Helen, played "perfectly grand tunes";
and some one of these tunes was usually the first thing that Burke heard
every night when he came home. So he called her coarse and noisy, and
declared she was even worse than Mrs. Jones; whereat Helen retorted that
of course he _wouldn't_ like her, if _she_ did--which (while possibly
true) did not make him like either her or Mrs. Cobb any better.
The baby came in November. It was a little girl. Helen wanted to call
her "Vivian Mabelle." She said she thought that was a swell name, and
that it was the name of her favorite heroine in a perfectly grand book.
But Burke objected strenuously. He declared very emphatically that no
daughter of his should have to go through life tagged like a vaudeville
fly-by-night.
Of course Helen cried, and of course Burke felt ashamed of himself.
Helen's tears had always been a potent weapon--though, from over-use,
they were fast losing a measure of their power. The first time he saw
her cry, the foundations of the earth sank beneath him, and he dropped
into a fathomless abyss from which he thought he would never rise. It
was the same the next time, and the next. The fourth time, as he felt
the now familiar sensation of sinking down, down, down, he outflung
desperate hands and found an unexpected support--his temper. After that
it was always with him. It helped to tinge with righteous indignation
his despair, and it kept him from utterly melting into weak
subserviency. Still, even yet, he was not used to them--his wife's
tears. Sometimes he fled from them; sometimes he endured them in dumb
despair behind set teeth; sometimes he raved and ranted in a way he was
always ashamed of afterwards. But still they had the power, in a
measure, to make his heart like water within him.
So now, about the baby's name, he called himself a brute and a beast to
bring tears to the eyes of the little mother--toward whom, since the
baby's advent, he felt a remorseful tenderness. But he still maintained
that he could have no man, or woman, call his daughter "Vivian Mabelle."
"But I should think you'd let me name my own baby," wailed his wife.
Burke choked back a hasty word and assumed his pet
"I'll-be-patient-if-it-kills-me" air.
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