The Road to UnderstandingPorter, Eleanor H. (Eleanor Hodgman)
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The Road to Understanding
Porter, Eleanor H. (Eleanor Hodgman)
Marriage -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction
And how delightful it would be when she was old enough to meet him on
his own ground--to be a companion for him, the companion he had not
found in his wife! She would be pretty, of course, sweet-tempered, and
cheerful. (Was he not to train her himself?) She would be capable and
sensible, too. He would see to that. To no man, in the future, should
she bring the tragedy of disillusionment that her mother had brought to
_him_. No, indeed! For that matter, however, he should not let her marry
any one for a long time. He should keep her himself. Perhaps he would
not let her marry at all. He did not think much of this marriage
business, anyway. Not that he was going to show that feeling any longer
now, of course. From now on he was to show only calm contentment and
tranquillity of soul, no matter what the circumstances. Was he not a
father? Had he not, in the hollow of his hand, a precious young life to
train?
Again all this was very well in theory. But in practice--
Dorothy Elizabeth was not six months old before the young father
discovered that parenthood changed conditions, not people. He felt just
as irritated at the way Helen buttered a whole slice of bread at a time,
and said "swell" and "you was," as before; just as impatient because he
could not buy what he wanted; just as annoyed at the purple cushion on
the red sofa.
He was surprised and disappointed. He told himself that he had supposed
that when a fellow made good resolutions, he was given some show of a
chance to keep them. But as if any one _could_ cultivate calm
contentment and tranquillity of soul as he was situated!
First, there were not only all his old disappointments and annoyances to
contend with, but a multitude of new ones. It was as if, indeed, each
particular torment had taken unto itself wife and children, so numerous
had they become. There was really now no peace at home. There was
nothing but the baby. He had not supposed that any one thing or person
could so monopolize everything and everybody.
When the baby was awake, Helen acted as if she thought the earth swung
on its axis solely to amuse it. When it slept, she seemed to think the
earth ought to stand still--lest it wake Baby up. With the same
wholesale tyranny she marshaled into line everything and everybody on
the earth, plainly regarding nothing and no one as of consequence,
except in its relationship to Baby.
Such unimportant things as meals and housework, in comparison with Baby,
were of even less than second consequence; and Burke grew to feel
himself more and more an alien and a nuisance in his own home. Moreover,
where before he had found disorder and untidiness, he now found positive
chaos. And however fond he was of the Baby, he grew unutterably weary of
searching for his belongings among Baby's rattles, balls, shirts, socks,
milk bottles, blankets, and powder-puffs.
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