There is a child here, a happy quiet little creature holding gently
to its two months of life. Sometimes they lay it beside me, I the
more helpless of the two--perhaps the more ignorant--and equally
dependent for the supply of my smallest need. I feel indecently large
as I survey its minute perfections and the tiny balled fist lying in
my great palm. The little creature fixes me with the wise wide stare
of a soul in advance of its medium of expression; and I, gazing back
at the mystery in those eyes, feel the thrill of contact between my
worn and sin-stained self and the innocence of a little white child.
It is wonderful to watch a woman's rapturous familiarity with these
newcomers. A man's love has far more awe in it, and the passionate
animal instinct of defence is wanting in him. "A woman shall be saved
through the child-bearing," said St Paul; not necessarily her own, but
by participation in the great act of motherhood which is the crown and
glory of her sex. She is the "prisoner of love," caught in a net of her
own weaving; held fast by little hands which rule by impotence, pursued
by feet the swifter for their faltering.
It seems incredible that this is what a woman will barter for the right
to "live her own life"--surely the most empty of desires. Man--_vir_,
woman--_femina_, go to make up _the_ man--_homo_. There can be no
comparison, no rivalry between them; they are the complement of each
other, and a little child shall lead them. It is easy to understand
that desire to shelter under the dear mantle of motherhood which has
led to one of the abuses of modern Romanism. I met an old peasant
couple at Bornhofen who had tramped many weary miles to the famous
shrine of Our Lady to plead for their only son. They had a few pence
saved for a candle, and afterwards when they told me their tale the
old woman heaved a sigh of relief, "Es wird bald gut gehen: Die
da, Sie versteht," and I saw her later paying a farewell visit to
the great understanding Mother whom she could trust. Superstitious
misapprehension if you will, but also the recognition of a divine
principle.
It was Behmen, I believe, who cried with the breath of inspiration,
"Only when I know God shall I know myself"; and so man remains the last
of all the riddles, to be solved it may be only in Heaven's perfection
and the light of the Beatific Vision. "Know thyself" is a vain legend,
the more so when emphasised by a skull; and so I company with a
friend and a stranger, and looking across at the white gate I wonder
concerning the quiet pastures and still waters that lie beyond, even as
Brother Ambrose wondered long years ago in the monastery by the forest.
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