Long confidences had followed this conversation; and Millicent listened
to Barbara’s account of a childish romance with that deep interest which
women all feel in the heart experiences of their sisters. Such sympathy
is born in the feminine breast before the power of loving awakes there,
and dies not when experience has brought nothing to it but grief and
bitterness. The veriest chit of a girl of ten will read a love-story if
she be allowed, while her brothers are inventing ingenious instruments
for the torture of cats and nurses. The deafest grandam will listen
with keen interest to her favorite grand-daughter’s confession of love,
and will be careful not to chill young hopes with her own sad memories.
All those who have loved truly, with that love which outlasts grief,
death, and human passion, which smiles at the cruelest neglect, which,
like the love of the Most High, passeth all understanding, have sympathy
and kindly interest for those who are in love. That "all the world
loves a lover," is the truest of all sayings.
As soon as they were alone, Millicent told Barbara that she was anxious
to return to the Ranch the following day. Since her first meeting with
John Graham, her life had danced away through bright hours passed in his
company, in remembering past interviews, in looking forward to future
meetings. In the long days when she lay weak and helpless, slowly
recovering from the terrible drain on forces, nervous and muscular, she
had thought long and deeply; and now that she was well, she did not wish
to meet Graham, and avoided his presence. She realized, as she had not
done before, that she deeply and irrevocably loved this man, whose name
six months ago had been unknown to her. Whether this understanding of
what was in her own heart came upon her in one broad flash of quickened
intelligence, when she lay half swallowed up by the jaws of death, still
clasping him with feeble hands, or if, in the quiet hours of
introspection which followed that awful moment, she gradually learned
the truth, it would be hard to say, but that she now knew it, was
indubitable. The fact that the man she loved should be indebted to her
for his life was a distasteful one. Not through gratitude did she wish
to attract him; the very thought of it was galling to her. She loved
him, and longed, with the deepest power in her soul, to arouse in his
breast that answering passion, which, like a deep bass chord, mingles
with the sweet treble song of woman’s love, their harmony making the one
perfect note to which the keystone of the universe trembles
sympathetically. Sweet as was the thought that her strength had
sufficed for them both, she mourned the chance which had made her hand
the rescuing one. Love that springs from gratitude or from pity is
earth-born and earth-bound; she would have none of it; it was as if she
had a claim upon him for that gift, which if not freely given is
valueless. So, with a shyness new to her, she avoided meeting Graham;
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