"Oh, my poor dear lady! If it should come to the worst, and her never
to look upon the little soft face of that sweet babe, sent to be a
comfort to her when she's been so solitary and unhappy all these years;
for she has been. Oh! these men--these men! They break our poor
hearts, they do! Why didn't the Captain come back sooner and make her
happy? or why didn't he die in real earnest over in the hot Ingies,
where they said he was killed, and not come back just then to make her
heart sore, as I know it has been ever since? though, poor soul, she
loves, honours, and obeys her husband as she should. There didn't never
ought to be any marrying at all, for it's always been an upset to me
ever since I thought about it; and him such a proper man, too, as he
used to be--such a nice red and white face, and always so smart till he
took to the drink; as I told him, he got to love it ever so much better
than he loved me, though he always coaxed me round into forgiving him.
I always knew it was weak; but then I couldn't help it, and I didn't
make myself; and if poor women are made weak and helpless, what can they
do?
"I always told him it would be his ruin, and begged of him to give it
up--and oh! the times he's kissed me and promised me he would! And then
for it to come to this. He'd never have said such cruel things about my
lady if it had not been for the drink; and though I'd forgive him almost
anything, I couldn't forgive him for speaking as he did. I do think he
likes me, and that it isn't all for the sake of the bit of money, which
he might have and welcome if it would do him any good. If he would only
leave off writing to me, and asking me to meet him when he knows I
daren't, and every letter breaking my heart, and at a time, too, when
I've got nowhere to go and sit down and cry. No; let him mend a bit,
and show me that he's left off the drink, and my poor dear lady get well
first, and I'll leave directly, as I told him I would, and work and
slave for him all my life, just for the sake of a few kind words; for I
know I'm only a poor ignorant woman; but I can love him very--very much,
and--"
Jane stopped short, listening attentively, for at that moment there was
a faint rustling sound beneath the window, and then, after a few
minutes' interval, another and another; a soft rustling sound as of
something forcing its way gently amongst the bushes and low shrubs, for
at times a step was audible amongst the dead leaves, and once there came
a loud crack, as if a foot had been set upon a dry twig which had
snapped sharply.
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