Ralph, who had declined with thanks so much as a cigarette, met this
from where he had continued to stand. "That will be exactly my strength.
It will leave me as much at ease as the seal of confession. And there's
another thing," he frankly added, "I don't fear to appear ridiculous;
but with your Excellency, naturally, it won't be the same."
His Excellency was too delightful. "You don't fear to appear ridiculous
to _me._ That's all. I can meet you at least on the same ground. I
shan't fear to appear so to you. I'm perfectly willing," he went on, "to
give you my definite word. If you do tell nobody else you may take it
that I shall tell as little."
Ralph watched him a moment. "You think I _will_ tell somebody else?"
The Ambassador got up at this to help himself from the chimney-piece to
another cigar, the end of which he nipped off and lighted before
replying. When he did reply it was with a reassuring hand on Ralph's
shoulder. "No--it's just what I _don't_ think. Your difficulty in
expressing it, whatever it may be, strikes me as the gage of your
general reserve."
The words were as kind as all the others, but they practically, and
happily enough, acted for Ralph as a challenge. He took it up then, and
it afterwards appeared that, in the act, he had also taken the
Ambassador's left hand, removing it by his own right from his shoulder,
where it had remained in soothing and, as he was sure, rather
compassionate intent. He thus appropriated the protection which enabled
him after an instant: "The point is that I'm not myself."
But his friend smiled as if in tribute to his lucidity. "Oh yes you
are!"
Ralph's look, on this, seemed to deprecate, and even in still greater
pity, any tendency to the superficial; it being marked for him more and
more that what had happened to him made him see things in a way compared
to which the ways of others--positively of such brilliant others as his
host--could show but for the simplest. "You don't take it as I mean it;
or rather perhaps I should say I don't mean it as you take it. Take it,
however," he pursued, "as you must: I have the advantage that your
courtesy to me leaves both of us such a margin." And then he explained.
"I'm somebody else."
The Ambassador's hand had during these instants still submitted to his
own for reassurance; but its possessor now disengaged it and turned
away, briefly presenting a meditative back. He was soon reestablished
none the less in his chair with his fresh cigar and every preparation,
it would seem, for the issue. Yet he smoked another moment. "And is the
other person you?"
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