He hadn’t imagined such familiar closeness with a woman really unknown,
nor that, sweeping away all the formalities that might have grown up
between them, she should call him Gavan and make it natural for him to
call her Eppie. He didn’t really mind. It was amusing, charming perhaps,
perhaps even touching--yes, of course it was that; but she was rather
out of place: much nearer than where he had imagined she would be, on
the stage before him.
Passing to another memory, she now said, “I clung for years, you know,
to your promise to come back.”
“I couldn’t come--really and simply could not.”
“I never for a moment thought you could, any more than I thought you
could forget Robbie.”
“And when I could come, you were gone.”
“How miserable that made me! I was in Rome when I had the news from
Uncle Nigel.”
He felt bound fully to exonerate the past. “I had the life, during my
boyhood, of a sumptuous galley-slave. I had everything except liberty
and leisure. I was put into a system and left there until it had had its
will of me. And when I was free I imagined that you had forgotten all
about me. To a shy, warped boy, a grown-up Eppie was an alarming idea.”
“I never thought you had forgotten _me_!” said Eppie, smiling.
Again she actually disturbed him; but, lightly, he replied with the
truth, feeling a certain satisfaction in its lightness: “Never, never;
though, of course, you fell into a background. You can’t deny that _I_
did.”
“Oh, no, I don’t deny it.” Her smile met his, seemed placidly to
perceive its meaning. She did not for a moment imply, by her admissions,
any more than he did; the only question was, What did his admissions
imply?
She left them there, going on in an apparent sequence, “Have you heard
much about me, Gavan?”
“A good deal,” he owned.
“I ask because I want to pick up threads; I want to know how many
stitches are dropped, so to speak. Since you have heard, I want to know
just what; I often seem to leave reverberations behind me. Some rather
ugly ones, I fear. You heard, perhaps, that I was that rather ambiguous
being, the young woman of fashion, materialistic, ambitious, hard.” Her
gaze, with its cool scrutiny, was now upon him.
“Those are really too ugly names for what I heard. I gathered, on the
whole, that you were merely very vigorous and that you had more
opportunities than most people for vigor.”
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