Detective and mystery stories; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
He had completely forgotten, in the press of dramatic events, the
disturbing fact of Nan Charters’ return the night of the theft. He
remembered it suddenly, as one remembers sorrow after a profound sleep.
But the recalling of it affected him differently. The revelation of
Mrs. Bloodgood’s hidden life had left him in a dangerous and vulnerable
mood—a mood of quickened compassion and outgoing sympathy. He was still
determined to force a direct answer from Miss Charters, but already he
had formed that answer in his heart, as he for the hour felt no longer
the selfish combat of vanity, but the need of charity and gentleness.
In one of the profound moods which color the visible world, he stood at
the window of the little sitting-room, awaiting her arrival, looking out
on the serried flight of unutterably commonplace roofs, gray and drab
with the gray of the turning day. And it seemed to him that this
twilight was different from other twilights, heavily weighted down with
more of the sadness of inexplicable lives. One tragedy seemed to invoke
a thousand tragedies, in the cramped immobility of these inscrutable
windows which had not yet begun to warm with the flicker of human cheer.
He saw only the brutal struggle to live, and felt only the mystery of
suffering, which was still a thing apart from his life. Standing
reverently thus, he asked himself two questions which, sooner or later,
each man of heart and sensibility puts to himself in the awakening to
conscious existence:
"Why do they go on?"
"What is my justification?"
And in his heart, still young and stirred to sympathy, he felt the
beginning of a revolt at what he had been, at his inability to find a
satisfying answer to that second question. He no longer awaited the
interview in the spirit of strife, but with a sudden feeling of
impulsive friendliness which, had he been an older man, might have
alarmed him with its dangers. The profound melancholy of youth, violent
because unconquered and strange, had him still in its grip when, all at
once, he felt an emotion of well-being and returning comfort.
She came into the room and without formal greeting gave him her hand
with a welcome in her eyes, as though their friendship were of such
strong duration that formalities were out of place.
"Draw the curtains," she said, going to the electric lamp on the table,
which woke like a golden sun from the shadows. "It’s cozier. Shall we
light the fire? Yes, it’s more cheery."
"Let me," he said hastily.
"Quite unnecessary."
He watched her sudden stooping movement, that brought the loose,
intricate tea-gown about her agile body, outlining the limbs, which had
the quick animal grace that is peculiar to the unconquered maiden. Her
pose, strong and alive with power and self-reliance, recalled to him
sharply the sense of opposition. He was annoyed that she should have
done so naturally what he should have done, feeling in her too much
self-reliance.
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