But if he couldn't keep this knowledge from himself, at least he could
hold it from the girl. It would only bring her unhappiness. It would
destroy the feeling of comradeship for him that he had begun to observe
in her. It would put an insurmountable wall between them. Besides, he
didn't believe that she could understand. Perhaps it would only offend
her,--that this son of the forests should give her his love. She had
never dealt with men of his breed before, and she had no inkling of the
smoldering, devouring fires within the man. He would not invite her
pity and her distrust by letting her know.
Strangest of all, he felt no bitterness or resentment. This development
was only a fitting part of the tragedy of his life: first his father's
murder, his dreams that had never come true, his lost boyhood, his exile
in the waste places, and now the lonely years that stretched before him
with nothing to atone or redeem. He knew that there could be no other
woman in his life. It was well enough for the men of cities to give and
take back their love; for them it was only wisdom and good sense, but
such a course was impossible to such sons of the forest as he. Life
gives but one dream to the forest folk, and they follow it till they
die. He knew that the yearning in his heart and the void in his life
could never be filled.
Yet he didn't rail at fate. He had learned what fate could do to him,
and he had learned to take its blows with a strange fatalism and
composure. Besides, would he not have the joy of her presence for many
days to come? Their adventure had just begun: weeks would pass before
she could go home. In those days he could serve her, toil for her,
devote himself wholly to her happiness. He could see her face and know
her beauty, and it was all worth the price he paid. For life in the
North is life in its simplest phases; and the northern men have had a
chance to learn that strangest truth of all,--that he who counts the
cost of his hour of pleasure shall be crushed in the jaws of Destiny,
and that a day of joy may be worth, in the immutable balance of being, a
whole life of sorrow.
Virginia had no suspicion of his thoughts. She was still enthralled by
the after-image of the music, and her own thoughts were soaring far
away. But soon the noise of the storm began to force itself into her
consciousness. It caused her to consider her own prospects for the
night.
Vaguely she knew that this night was different from the others. The two
previous nights she had been ill and half-unconscious: her very
helplessness appealed to Bill's chivalry. To-night she stood on her own
feet. Matters were down to a normal basis again, and for the first time
she began to experience a certain embarrassment in her position. She
was suddenly face to face with the fact that the night stretched before
her,--and she in a snowswept cabin in the full power of a strange man.
She felt more than a little uneasy.
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