"Once we girls had a teacher," she began, "who delivered glorious
never-to-be-forgotten lectures in class. He worked too hard, like you,
and by this time he must certainly have died of consumption. The same
will happen to you, if you don't take care and go more slowly."
He nodded dejectedly.
"Yes, life's hard, very hard."
"You must get enough sleep, and go walking. Walking a great deal is the
very best."
"Do _you_ go walking?"
Lilly taken aback considered a moment. Since she had been in that hole
among the books, she had not seen a field of snow or a green tree.
"Oh, I!" she threw out, shrugging her shoulders. "What have I got to do
with it?" Then, inwardly rejoicing at her own boldness, she added: "How
would it be if we were to take a walk together?"
Now it was his turn to be taken aback.
"There are such a lot of obstacles," he observed, thoughtfully shaking
his mane. "The thing would be misinterpreted. There are considerations,
especially so far as you are concerned--certainly, especially for you."
Lilly had read of young cavaliers whose solicitude for their lady's good
name exceeded their very passion for her, and she looked up at him in
gratitude and admiration.
"Don't bother about me! I'll manage. I'll just shirk early mass."
Though she felt a tiny prick at her heart because of her blasphemous
words, she knew that for the sake of such a walk she would betray God,
betray St. Joseph himself, without the least hesitation.
"But I've got to get through with the examinations first," he explained.
The matter was settled and the plan sealed with mutual promises.
Accompanied by Lilly's good wishes and warnings, he took leave, but not
before carefully scanning street, porch, and hall.
* * * * *
From now on Lilly's life was one glow of hope and dreamy anticipation.
She would lie awake half the night, picturing to herself how she would
wander over the golden meadows with him in the light of dawn, her hand
pressed against her throbbing heart, her arm now and then slightly
grazing his elbow. Each time she thought of this she felt a little
shock, which quivered down to the very tips of her toes.
She read nothing but hot, passionate books, in which there was much of
"intoxication," "transport," and the "giddiness of endless kisses." But
she did not dream of kisses in connection with herself. Whenever she
found herself drifting in that direction, she checked herself in
dismay--so exalted was he above every earthly desire.
Now she knew what reasons justified her in promising St. Joseph a silver
heart.
One Sunday morning she told St. Joseph the whole story--about Fritz
Redlich's examinations, his high ideals, and her solicitude for him. The
only thing she refrained from mentioning was the walk they had planned;
which she had to omit on account of the shirked mass.
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