The Southern Literary Messenger, Volume I., 1834-35Various
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The Southern Literary Messenger, Volume I., 1834-35
Various
American literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals
"I am aware of the utter frustration of your hopes; I am convinced
that at the end of a year you will not be a step nearer to fortune
than you are now; why then keep my hand for you? What I say briefly,
you will interpret fully. You are now the guardian of my happiness; as
such I address you. Thursday, so you consent, will be my wedding day.
ROSALIE."
Such was the letter, upon the address and seal of which Theodore had
imprinted a score of kisses before he opened it. "Fortune is in the
mood," said Theodore with a sigh, so deeply drawn, that any one who
had heard it would have imagined he had breathed his spirit out along
with it--"Fortune is in the mood, and let her have her humor out! I
shall answer the letter; my reply to her shall convey what she
desires--nothing more! she is incapable of entering into my feelings,
and unworthy of being made acquainted with them; I shall not
condescend even to complain!"
"ROSALIE,
"You are free! THEODORE."
Such was the answer which Theodore despatched to Rosalie. O the
enviable restlessness of the mind upon the first shock of thwarted
affection! How it turns every way for the solace which it feels it can
no more meet with, except in the perfect extinction of consciousness.
Find it an anodyne!--you cannot. A drug may close the eye for a time,
but the soul will not sleep a wink: it lies broad awake, to agony
distinct, palpable, immediate;--howsoever memory may be cheated to
lose for the present the traces of the cause. Then for the start, the
spasm, the groan which, while the body lies free, attest the presence
and activity of the mental rack! Better walk than go to sleep! A
heath, without a soul but yourself upon it!--an ink-black sky, pouring
down torrents--wind, lightning, thunder, as though the vault above was
crackling and disparting into fragments!--any thing to mount above the
pitch of your own solitude, and darkness, and tempest; and overcome
them, or attract and divert your contemplation from them, or threaten
every moment to put an end to them and you!
Theodore's friend scarcely knew him the next morning. He glanced at
him, and took no further notice. 'Twas the best way, though people
there are who imagine that it rests with a man in a fever, at his own
option to remain in it, or to become convalescent.
Theodore's feelings were more insupportable to him the second day than
the first. He went here and there and every where; and nowhere could
he remain for two minutes at a time at rest. Then he was so
abstracted. Crossing a street he was nearly run over by a vehicle and
four. This for a moment awakened him. He saw London and B---- upon the
pannels of the coach. The box seat was empty; he asked if it was
engaged. "No." He sprung up upon it and away they drove. "I'll see her
once more," exclaimed Theodore, "it can but drive me mad or break my
heart."
Within a mile of B---- a splendid barouch passed them. "Whose is
that?" inquired Theodore.
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