My attitude towards Angelina needed a good looking at. The most
important fact I had to face was the strong attraction I felt for her.
Love? Put any name to it you want--I suppose love will do as well as
any, though this was no throbbing adolescent passion. I wasn't blind
to her faults, in fact I rather detested them now that I knew her
murderously amoral existence had an echo in my own mind. But logic and
convictions have very little to do with emotions. Hating this side of
her didn't remove the attraction of a personality so similar to my own.
I echoed my psychotic self's attitude--what a team we might have made!
This was of course impossible, but that didn't stop me from wanting it.
Love and hate are reputed to be very close and in my case they were
certainly rubbing shoulders. And the whole confused business wasn't
helped in the slightest by the fact that Angelina was so damnably
attractive. I took a long drag at my drink.
Finding her should be easy now. The carelessness with which I took
this for granted was a little shocking. I had gained no new information
while mentally aberrant. Just a great chunk of insight into the
tortured grooves that my Angelina's mind trundled along. There could be
no doubt that raw power was what she desired. This couldn't be obtained
through influencing the king, I saw this now. Violence was the way, a
power putsch, perhaps assassination, certainly revolution and turmoil
of some kind. This had been the pattern in the bad old days on Freibur
when sovereignty had been the prize of battle. Any of the nobility
could be crowned, and whenever the old king's grip weakened it was a
cue for a power struggle that would produce the new monarch. Of course
that sort of thing had stopped as soon as the societics specialists
from the League worked their little tricks.
The old days were on the way back--that was clear. Angelina was
going to see this world bathed in blood and death to satisfy her own
ambition. She was out there now--somewhere--grooming the man for
the job. One of the counts, still very important in the semi-feudal
economy, was having his ego inflated and guided by a new power behind
the throne. This is the pattern Angelina had used before, and would be
sure to use again. There could be no doubt.
Only one small factor was missing. Who was the man?
My dive into the depths of self-analysis had left a definitely
unwholesome taste in my mouth that no amount of liquor could wash away.
What I needed was a little touch of action to tone up my drooping nerve
ends and accelerate my sluggish blood. Tracking down Angelina's front
man would be just the charge my battery needed. Merely thinking about
it helped, and it was with eagerness that I searched the newspaper for
the Court News column. There was a Grand Ball just two days distant,
the perfect cover for this operation.
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