The Standard BearerCrockett, S. R. (Samuel Rutherford)
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The Standard Bearer
Crockett, S. R. (Samuel Rutherford)
Covenanters -- Fiction; Scotland -- History -- 17th century -- Fiction
For, strange as it may appear, when she went forth from the kirk that
day she left a look behind her which went straight to my heart. It was
like a dart thrown at random which sticks and is lost, yet inly rankles
and will not let itself be forgotten.
I tried to shut the desire of seeing her again out of my heart. But do
what I could this was not to be. It would rise, coming between me and
the very paper on which I wrote my sermon, before I began to learn to
mandate. When the sun looked over the water in the morning and shone on
the globed pearls of dew in the hollow palms of the broad dockleaves on
the gracious clover blooms, and on the bending heads of the spiked
grasses, I rejoiced to think that he shone also on Earlstoun and the
sunny head of a fairer and more graceful flower.
God forgive a sinful man! At these times I ought to have been thinking
of something else. But when a man carries such an earthly passion in his
heart, all the panoply of heavenly love is impotent to restrain thoughts
that fly swift as the light from hilltop to hilltop at the sun-rising.
So I went home for a day or two to Ardarroch, where with a kind of
gratitude I stripped my coat and fell to the building of dykes about the
home park, and the mending of mangers and corn-chests with hammer and
nail, till my mother remonstrated. “Quintin, are ye not ashamed, you
with a parish of hungry souls to be knockin’ at hinges and liftin’
muckle stanes on the hillsides o’ Ardarroch?”
But Anna kept close to me all these days, understanding my mood. We had
always loved one another, she and I. I had used to say that it was Anna
who ought to have been the minister; for her eyes were full of a fair
and gracious light, the gentle outshining of a true spirit within. And
as for me, after I had been with her awhile, in that silence of
sympathy, I was a better and a stronger man--at least, one less unfit
for holy office.
Right gladly would I have taken Anna back with me to the manse of
Balmaghie, but I knew well that she would not go.
“Quintin,” she was wont to say, “our faither and mither are not so young
as they once were. My faither forgets things whiles, and the herd lads
are not to trust to. David there is for ever on the trot to this
farm-town and that other--to the clachan o’ St. John, to the New Town
of Galloway, or to Balmaclellan--’tis all one to him. He cannot bide at
home after the horses are out of the collar and the chain drops from the
swingle-tree into the furrow.”
“But some day ye will find a lad for yourself, Anna, and then you will
also be leaving Ardarroch and the auld folk behind ye.”
My sister smiled a quiet smile and her eyes were far away.
“Maybe--maybe,” she said, temperately, “but that day is not yet.”
“Has never a lad come wooin’ ye, Anna? Was there not Johnny of
Ironmacanny, Peter Tait frae the Bogue, or----”
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